I'm struggling with my weight. Since starting HRT, it's gone up and up and up. Still fairly reasonable (164, 5'11"), but it's far higher than it used to be.
I know my weight is normal, but my body is still looks bulky and unfemale. I know that I've only been on HRT for a few months, but I'm starting to look in mirrors and see a fat guy who should stop eating to thin his body down. And I know that this is such a stupid reaction to have, that I'm a healthy weight, that severe dieting is harmful, and that HRT takes years and not months, but I can feel the desire to starve myself. I know this'll be harmful to fat repositioning too and I'll look gaunt and skeletal and unfeminine if I diet like I used to, but something inside me wants to stop eating again and strip every pound of fat off.
Any advice? I should be happy about my healthy weight, not looking in the mirror and wanting to screw up the progress I've made so far.