for those on HRT how many times a week do you say what the f am I doing

[stephaniec]

I think I say it at least once a day.

[FalseHybridPrincess]

I do say it sometimes...

hrt is no joke , I feel like a mutant or something , you dont go from male to female in one day , it takes years and it can get awkward...
but I guess one day the transformation will end :p

[lemon_ice]

I'm glad I'm not the only one, I usually go for a couple of days where I'm mostly really happy with everything, then I'll have a bad one where I have at least a few wtf moments.
It's such a huge and long process so I guess it's inevitable.. I just make sure I look up and look at the beautiful sky, the glint of the sun on the sea or some beautiful trees and smile at how much more I'm affected by the beauty of the world now That usually helps me put those horrible doubts aside Such a hippy lol.

[Tori]

Around 28 times a week.

[FrancisAnn]

Hardly ever for me, sometimes I get dissapointed however HRT feels so nice & I cannot imagine life without estrogen.

[Jill F]

The first week, a LOT.  I didn't want to be trans, but I sure liked what E was doing for me mentally.  I was still unsure whether I could ever transition socially.

I haven't questioned it in ages now.  It's a done deal.

[Christine Eryn]

Probably never. I did quit HRT twice in 7 years though, primarily because I thought it wasn't working. Glad I was wrong, as the results are overwhelmingly positive. 

[Wynternight]

Not at all yet.

[Melizza]

I started HRT on 1/2012, I have not said that yet, hopefully I can keep it that way...

[Brenda E]

A few times a week, easily.  I might look in the mirror and think, "Dude, are you insane? Trying to grow boobs and remove your beard and pretend you're a girl?  Get a grip!  You look frickin' ridiculous."

And then I think back to how miserable life was beforehand, and I'm like, "The only way forward is HRT.  Suck it up.  It gets better."

But most days, I'm happy and don't question myself too much.  It is what it is.

[LordKAT]

Never. Once started, well before that, I knew I was never going back. I used to dream of finding a way to get male hormones, being a kid and ignorant of all things possible. I used to dream of how to do a surgery and numerous other things, just to have a body that made sense. That was long before I knew it was already possible, and I knew then if I could do it, I would certainly never undo it.

[Sydney_NYC]

One or two times I've had that thought that lasted maybe 5-10 seconds. I've been so happy with HRT I would never want to go back. I've reached to point of no return and glad I made it here.

Ironically I had a dream last night (or should I say nightmare) that I was shrunken and then enlarged back (probably from seeing the last Dr Who episode) by a machine. When I was enlarged again, all my body hair had come back and I had lost everything I gained from HRT. When I woke up and I was back to my normal feminine self, I was so relieved.

[Miranda Catherine]

Hi Stephanie,
   I was so desperate to change into who I am now, I've never looked back even through the times I had no idea it would be this good, because I can honestly say I left NOTHING, NOTHING behind. If I had the slightest clue I'd even be able to tolerate, or endure my life, let alone feel the happiness that I do the vast majority of my life now and have since the day I 'decided' to transition (no decision at all, transition or die, and maybe die anyway!) I've never regretted a moment since I had my first shot of estradiol. I highly doubt if I ever will, and if I do, I know it will be momentary! Hugs, Mira

[Leila]

When I initially made the decision to start HRT I made a very determined choice to want to initiate it. I don't regret starting HRT and therefore I haven't had any moments where I stopped to think that what I was doing was whack.

In fact I've never felt internally more happier since starting.

[noeleena]

Hi.

being a female is a bit different i spos,  so why would i even  think like that .

im hard wired female and  dont know how men think i never did  to me any hormones  i take are because i need them its not a wont,

like any woman and at my age most women do need them just they are not told this as we age we need a top up to help in not getting health issues   more so over the age of 50, at the start of the change of life,  so something to think about ,
For those of us who are different then its more importaint ,

Sorry,  i dont understand your thinking ,and others too i surpose,   to me its saying your unsure of your self  .ill look at it this way did i doubt my self in who i was /  am ,  simple answer no of cause not , i had other issues oh yes  just not about who i was  / am ,

Just one point what brings this on for you ,  whats behind this ?  lack of confidence may be,  not being totaly sure of who you are,  or some other reason. 

...noeleena...

[xponentialshift]

I never have...
Granted I would never use that word (even a censored version)... But I haven't had the same sentiment in my thoughts either.
A few times I've gone "wow this is a huge step" but it was always me being impressed with how much I was willing to change to make myself feel right.

[whatever]

I'm really sorry but all I can think is "thank f'ing god" and "please don't ever let them stop this."

[Sammy]

Once or twice per month.

[Alainaluvsu]

Zero since 2011.

[JulieBlair]

I began the process of becoming authentic only because not to was to die a little more inside every day.  For the first year, pretty much nobody knew - I even kept my beard (which was pretty dumb, but helped me feel stealthy).  Then ever so slowly Julie began to really emerge, at first only here and there and only now and then.  I was so scared, and so insecure that I questioned my motives and was convinced that all I would ever be was a never passing freak.  Pretty much only my therapist embraced what I was doing, and kept telling me that living as I truly was at the core would be okay, that beauty and femininity were there inside, and would emerge as I grew into womanhood.

Another year and a half passed.  Life got more interesting, I became more comfortable until I was Julie in every venue except at work.  A few months ago I began to live full time in my own girly skin.  Still I was nervous, questioning, and at times fearful.  Will I be accepted, can I live, play, love with femininity and grace?  Was I even sure what that meant?  Will anyone love and care for me?  The answer to all these questions is a big affirmative.  I no longer question, worry, nor am fearful.  I am who I am and if you think otherwise, it kinda sucks to be you.  I love myself and I love the people who love me.  It took as long as was necessary for me, but the only step remaining is confirmation surgery, and even that is no longer the end game for me.  My life is mine to live fully, joyfully, and authentically, now and forevermore!

Peace,
Julie