so a few months back my doctors sent me to CBT, and I was told I couldnt be helped and sent over to a more intense Cognitive Behavioural Therapist. While I am finding it's certainly helping my general anxiety and it's lovely to feel supported, I do find it a bit saddening when it gets to the gender stuff.
Me: 'If there's one thing I want to talk about besides this. I've had these issues with my body for a long time, and I keep feeling I'd be happie if I was much more feminine, if not female. I find these feelings confusing, and I was wondering, if you can help that's great, but if not, is there anyone you could point me in the direction of?
I'm not saying I'm rushing into anything just yet, but I find these feelings confusing and they play on my mind almost every day, quite a lot of the day as well. Sometimes I can't stomach seeing myself in the mirror. I have some coping strategies for these feelings, like crossdressing, but I feel somewhat ashamed of this part of myself, and that it could seriously impact on my close relationships and other areas of my life.'
And then I proceed to be stared at like I have three heads.
I'm honestly considering going private, now I've finally gotten employed (still stealthing it though)
I might be able to afford one now.
I'll probably check back in at some point, last few months I've been quiet for a whole host of reasons
