For those questioning

[Feather]

Hmm, I do have dysphoria, of that I'm sure. It's just that my dysphoria is strange to understand. I don't mind to be perceived as male and I don't mind socializing with males etc. I do imagine how I would feel if I were a female and I frequently cross dress. I don't want to go out of the door without some feminine clothing underneath or feminine accessories. I don't ''feel female'' because I don't know what that means? I feel mostly indifferent inside, neither (or maybe both?). As a child I did boy and girl stuff. In video games I prefer female characters if I have the choice. I am jealous of women every day.. I want to look like them.

She says that hormones are a good method to try out. Very liberal point of view though, and not something I am able to try out here (Netherlands) where the process is conservative. And I'm not sure about that. It might be subject to one's own personal bias, the mind is a powerful thing.

[Colt]

Oh wow this was SO helpful! Thank you so much, it really did make me realise that I'm on the right path.

[JulieWeeks]

Her series of mtf videos really hit home with me and added re-enforcement to what I already know to be true about myself.  I have my first appointment next month with a gender therapist and these videos provide some perspective on what to expect in those first meetings.

[Illuminess]

I showed a bunch of her videos to a good friend of mine that I've known since 2005. When I came out to him he surprised me with his own confession: he enjoys cross dressing. I couldn't figure out if that was the extent of it or if perhaps he was struggling with being trans. He didn't really understand a lot of the terminology that defines everything. So, I explained it all and showed him the videos, and he said he's perfectly fine in his skin as a male. He simply finds it fun to go out in drag. He showed me a couple of pictures, and they actually looked really good. He worries too much about his build, and feels he can't explore this any further now that he has a daughter. Now that we know these things about each other it has added a new dynamic to our friendship that neither of us expected. It's neat. I actually have a good friend that I can talk to comfortably. I invited him here, but he has no computer at the moment. We're probably going to attend the Texas Renaissance Festival together this year with him in drag and me in costume (hoping to pull off the character Irisa from the show Defiance).