Hi, my name is Jason/Catherine. I am in southern Alberta. I have known I was different ever since I was 5, when the cruel cruel world of other people came into my life. I was the fat kid, that dressed horribly, that didn't talk much, that nobody liked and that secretly wanted to be a girl. I played with my sister's barbies, Polly pockets, Bratz, and board games (Like mall madness, I absolutely loved and still love that game) until my parents found out and banned me from those. Then I just stole them and returned them before anyone noticed. My mom used to be an Avon lady, so we got free make up and cosmetics a lot. I would steal some of the blush kits and lipstick from time to time, until I was punished by my mom. I blamed everything on my weight and thought that wanting to be a girl was just something else to be ashamed of, until 2 years ago. When I went into grade 9 I became the school DJ, I dressed classy, I slimmed down a fair bit, my sense of humor and acting skills improved loads and consequentially became a very popular sort of guy. Boom, like that, a lot of my problems went away and one biggie from my past was brought up again, in a big way. I got super depressed whenever I thought about it, so I put it behind me until 1 and a half months ago, when I finally Googled " Why do I want to be a girl so bad? " and eventually found this place, and many others. I have since visited a shrink 4 times and have told my family and doctor. My family is a little less than supportive, but my mom pays for my shrink. Thank you for reading this.
