Partial FFS With Chettawutt (13/11/2014)

[Eva]

That HAD to suck, well you made it through and Im sure your gonna just feel better by the day now, congrats 

I dont get why they would want you to stop IM injections though... Women have surgeries all the time and they cant stop E

[Carrie Liz]

(now I always present female, there's no male remaining in me, even at a mental level).
...

Yesterday I was incredibly scared about going out for the first time (I needed to buy bread and move money between accounts), and in the end I went out without makeup, dressed quite girly (I'm not feeling ok with andro looks) So far, no weird looks and gendered female. I am much calmer and at ease now, always smiling (on what measure the lip lift allows me).

After all of the negativity and self-hatred that I've seen you write about your own appearance, that is seriously the greatest thing I've ever heard you say. So happy that you finally feel confident!

[Eva]

I agree and Im inspired!!! Really happy for you 

[michelle82]

Glad to hear your recovery is going well and that you are safely home! Post more pix of your progress!!

[Apples Mk.II]

I don't know if I put the camera too high, but damn my chin. I still feel pretty ugly when I look at those protruding cheekbones, and my facial fat still hasn't come back in two years.

[Liara]

  Without words Julia.. You are absolutely beautiful! I'm so happy for you, You deserved it! Do you feel more confident with your self? 

[Apples Mk.II]

Honestly, not a lot. I like passing and being gendered female without being all dolled, but I'm still frustrated about HRT doing nothing to soften my features. I have corrected the fixed things that HRT would not change, but my skin and facial fat are still nonexisting.

These days I only think about having an orchiectomy. Just not having testosterone in my system, as I feel that my hyperactive testicles have been slowing down my transition. It will still be at least 19 months until SRS.

My eyelid numbness has gone and I can feel preasure again, although I don't want to use makeup. Today I had to go to the hospital to get something removed from my upper eyelid. The eyelid had swollen and I was scared about having broke something, but as I was told, the bleph has fully healed by now. I had to give explanation about my bruising, since nurses kept inquiring about if I had taken trauma. I really don't like explaining these kind of surgeries, and only my therapist and my doctor were aware of them. Right now I have some cornea damage that will need some care for the week.

And Liara, please. No quoting of pictures. Not that it serves a lot now that susans won't allow privacy edits, but anyways I can remotely wipe the pics.



PD: No catcalling so far.

[Julia-Madrid]

Chica

I think this is a very good result.  Now give it time to heal.  In 4-6 months you will be astonished by the improvement.  Take a selfie each week and review them in April.

Julia

[Apples Mk.II]

Chica

I think this is a very good result.  Now give it time to heal.  In 4-6 months you will be astonished by the improvement.  Take a selfie each week and review them in April.

Julia

Right now my biggest issue is that I want to do lots of stuff and I can't. I look ok at a bone level, even with the swelling, bruising and scars I still look like a girl, but inside I'm still all broken. I want to exercise till I run out of breath, get a full beauty maintenance and over everything else, and have sex like it was the end of the world now that I don't feel as a man and thinking of it as gay sex. But sadly, it's all looks. I'm still a construct made of fresh sutures, healing bones that is only healed on the outside. I feel weak, I am scared of hitting my nose every time I hug or kiss somebody and overall I feel like I will break if I do anything else that is not walking carefully and staying very quiet until I am healed. Washing my face always feels like handling a cake without crushing it, and I keep getting pain from soap in my eyes. I am not even putting makeup because I am scared it will mess with the scars healing (and it would not allow me to massage my nose).

I wish I could get a good haircut (my forehead  scar still hurts when handling hair, so I am afraid about letting a professional do intensive work), do my eyebrows (they were plucked away by the tape holding the cast and they still need one month of growth minimum), or get a professional facial cleaning (literally forbidden, same as with exfoliating after a rhinoplasty).

I have started taking biotin too. If it can help with hair and skin recovery, be it welcome.

BTW, I'm friggin' horny, as if all the accumulation from those weeks came back, and wishing I could be physically functional. I feel so weak. I want to get fit, gorgeous... but I hate waiting and being careful. To make things worse, after the eye thing I had to deal with gastric issues, nausea and vomiting for the rest of the day.

[Eva]

Just the IM injections make me horny enough The psychological things you describe sound nice, I bet in just another two weeks as you heal more you will feel better...   

Im very impatient too, thank you for your thoughts, it helps me to prepare for what Im going to be in for   

You just gotta wait it out and take care, Ive been going crazy myself here recovering from voice feminization surgery.... Not quite the same thing but still a big deal thats changed my mind and life for the better 

[Apples Mk.II]

Just the IM injections make me horny enough :laugh

I don't even want to think about it... Tomorrow I have bikini line lasering, and I'm considering masturbating before going to avoid "surprises".

[BreezyB]

I don't even want to think about it... Tomorrow I have bikini line lasering, and I'm considering masturbating before going to avoid "surprises".

Oh, your a lucky girl Julia, I mean, this girl can't even get it up, damn 'no testosterone' lol..

But seriously Hun, you look fantastic, and I know looks are not everything and all the healing is happening on the inside but on the outside, I would say all has been a success. You originally said you wanted to split the surgery, and so the chin work will come when your ready. And also the hair, looking great, I can't see any issue girlfriend?

Now, about me.. I'm heading to Dr Chettawut in Jan, first of all for a Trachea Shave. Mined if pm you Julia as need a few tips on travel stops and eateries lol.

But seriously girl your looking good, and whilst I don't speak from experience I hear it just gets better

Hugs,
Bree xxx

[Apples Mk.II]

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Now, about me.. I'm heading to Dr Chettawut in Jan, first of all for a Trachea Shave. Mined if pm you Julia as need a few tips on travel stops and eateries lol.

Hugs,
Bree xxx

Sure, although the biggest issue you will have with the trach shave is.... No spicy food, no cold drinks, and you will have to rely on soups or very small rations for the first days. Also, never ever try to contain sneezing. I did it today and I am still hurting.

Bangkok is a bad place if you can't tolerate spicy foods, although most of the time you will live on precooked stuff and the restaurant's room service for dinner. For the first 2-3 days I was only having creams, soup and the blandest possible things.

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[Apples Mk.II]

Four weeks post-op:



Terrible terrible selfie after a christmas office lunch while going back on the metro. Swelling has been moving down to my face lower part. Still a long long wait to go, as Chett put the full recovery at 6 months.

This wednesday I'm having my eyebrows redone, and maybe I should see if I can get an appointment for my hair on thursday.

[BreezyB]

Your looking great Julia. Looks like the recovery is coming along nicely.

I'm all booked in to see Dr  Chettawut in the first week of Jan for the Trachea Shave. But this is also a consult for FFS mid year so hoping things go as well as they have for you.

[missymay]

Four weeks post-op:



Terrible terrible selfie after a christmas office lunch while going back on the metro. Swelling has been moving down to my face lower part. Still a long long wait to go, as Chett put the full recovery at 6 months.

This wednesday I'm having my eyebrows redone, and maybe I should see if I can get an appointment for my hair on thursday.

You look so pretty

[Jennygirl]

Incredible transformation. You must be over the moon about your results! What a beauty!

[ReDucks]

Wow! You look amazing!

[Sophiabutterfly09]

I love the results, especially your Eye area!!! superb

[Joanne Feliz]

wow great journal and very informative.

Sounds like all the procedures you had done I was told I needed by Dr Chettawut.  Is scarey but at the same time reassuring that you have recovered.

PS you look fantastic!