Temporary return, but hi

[nexia]

Hi, I used to go on here as 'D3viousX3n' And the like. 'Xen's Steaming, Screaming Tea-Kettle' was Mine a long time ago.


It's nice to say hi to many of you, but could a mod please delete my old blog? My old account was deleted, but the blog never was for some reason and it's on the mainpage of google/conflicts with my attempted musical career.

A lot of the posts I made may have been useful to some, but It's time for them to be retired or at least someone could remove the metadata so it's not 3 search results via google under my artist page on soundcloud and facebook. I was a completely different person when I posted that stuff; just figuring stuff out. I'd appreciate it if it could be taken down and I could prove my credentials, I'm sure.

Anywho... Hope everyone is doing okay. Been forever since I've gone to this forum. I've had my issues with it, but it was there for me when I needed support. Many of the members here have helped me come to realizations I desperately needed to find. For that, I'm grateful.

Thanks, everyone

-'Seriously this current username is a pun on the old one'

[JulieBlair]

Hi,
Welcome back, if only for a visit.  It is always nice when someone from over the rainbow drops by for a cuppa.  I hope you stick around for a while and chat us up some.

Later on,
Julie

[alabamagirl]

Please stay? *pouts*

[nexia]

  I'll stay if a mod could end the catch 22 and delete mein shiz.

I don't mind coming here, sometimes. I have horrific insomnia and still am as dysphoric as ever, so I wouldn't even mind venting, tbh.

But, I find myself increasingly withdrawn from the world and socially overloaded cause I talk my closest friends into surviving, constantly. My anxiety just needs to go to a hyperbolic time chamber/TARDIS/blanket burial, sometimes, so I can recharge. There's a LOT of other stuff that's new, but yeah. Found out my Mom abused me and turned me into her scapegoat of narcissism, had to detransition a lot and don't even look the same/but still trying to hold the dream. Coming to terms with so many things that I actually forget what they all are, sometimes.

If anyone wants to know about my music, btw, it's abstract/proggy/experimental gameboy made music. Just PM me. 

[nexia]

My blog is still visible to google search despite it not being visible from this forum.


PLEASE. DELETE. MY. BLOG.

Please; Don't keep it archived, don't make it searchable- Just actually delete it.

I would love to come to this forum, again, but I deserve an ounce of privacy and this is honestly starting to creep me out.

[Ms Grace]

Could be it is in the Google cache even though deleted here? Unfortunately theres nothing we can do about that I'm sorry. Not sure how long it takes for the Google cache to expire.

[nexia]

I can access each blog entry from google and they're not even locked or blocked. They're completely accessible and visible.

If someone else on this forum couldn't delete their data, it could actually be dangerous to their well-being.

Just saying.

[nexia]

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,72576.0.html See?

Totally accessible, still. All you guys did was make it inaccessible via this forum... Not google. It still exists.

Please? At the very least re-enable my 'Devious Xen' Account, so I can take care of it myself? Thanks.

[Ms Grace]

OK, I've put in a direct request to the site Admins, not something I can do myself.