Hello, my name is Victoria Rose.
I am a twenty-three year old MtF who has yet to embark on my Transitioning Journey. To become fully on the outside the woman I am on the inside. I do dress up in women's clothing and wear make-up. I feel the most like myself when I do that, but feel the need to go further. Which I plan on doing when I have enough money.
I have most recently taken one of the biggest steps of my life: telling my friends and family that I am Trans.
It went well, I have found that my parents are accepting of me, as they have always been, and most of my friends are very supportive of me and who I am meant to be. I have to say, for all the time I've spent worrying and stressing about it, it seems that I should not have spent all that time doing so. But while this side of the penny is nice, shiny, and bright, there is the other side that is dark, discolored, and losing its luster: some of my friends and family members have disowned me and will not talk to me. I realized that would happen and thought I was prepared for the pain and loss, but I wasn't. It still hurts.
Now, while it does hurt, I keep in my heart and mind those who are standing beside me and love me. They are very supportive and I hope that one day I will have enough money to start the steps I will take to become the woman I am.
As for background? I grew up in a small Illinois town, the eldest of three children. I was born Tommy Joseph Frost and was a happy child. I didn't lack for love or affection or anything important. My parents did the best they could and their love was evident in all they did and said. When I was a little child, I knew I was different from other boys. I liked playing dress-up and putting on my mom's high heels and wearing make-up. I loved it. I felt the most happy when I dressed and acted like a girl. As I grew up, I hid that away for I feared what others outside my family would say or do. I kept to myself and made friends with only a select few people. When I was twelve years old, I came out to my parents, as a gay boy. I remember distinctly saying "I think I'm gay." And for a few years it made sense and I could feel good in the fact that my attraction to men was at least slightly socially acceptable. But when I was seventeen years old, I heard of the term Transgender. It intrigued me to learn about this term I had never come across before. So I researched it. I spent time on YouTube looking at Male to Female Transitioning videos and learning as much as I could about what it meant to be Trans. When I was twenty-one, I came the realization that I was indeed a Transgendered individual, but still fearing what my friends and family would think, I kept living life as a gay man. I've had boyfriends and lovers, but it never quite felt right, you know? I just didn't feel comfortable in my own skin. And so, I decided it was time to reveal my true self to my friends and family. I told my roommates first and they were all smiles and happy to hear that I trusted them enough to share my "secret" with them. They were really the driving force behind my decision to tell my other friends and my family.
And so I told my family. And then my other friends. I'm now finally happy with who I am and feel so blessed to have so many supportive people in my life. I found
Susans.org on the internet, purely looking for a place to meet other Trans individuals and talk with them and get to know others who are like me. I'm also hoping to learn as much as I can about the Transitioning Journey so that I can save up my money accordingly and not run myself into the ground financially.
With Love and Happiness,
Victoria "Tori" Rose
