Hi,
I'm Peggiann. My signifigant other is Leah. We have been married for all most 25 years. We share my 3 sons. Leah came into our lives just 2 and 1/2 years after my husband had died. I was 27 at the time. My boys were only 5, 2 1/2, and 1 years old at the time. Leah has been a posititive role model for them and taught them so much. They are now all married and have successful jobs and careers. One married a lady with 3 children from a previous marriage. The youngest just made us grand parents this past March. So Carson is now 9 months. The other son has no children yet. We also share some Adopted children from a previous marriage of Leah's. They all live miles away too. So we don't see them much.
I have only known about Leah's deepest inner desire for 5 1/2 years. Those being to become as much a woman as possible. And eventually to have SRS. Now that Leah has shared this part of herself I understand so many other things that hurt my feelings throughout our married time together. They don't hurt anymore because now I know the reason for Leah's behavior. Leah wasn't meaning to hurt me or even have the issue reflect on me personally. I being female just figured I was doing something wrong. It was only how he was before he started becoming Leah.
I must say this is not just declaring ones intentions and then from then on it's done. It's an evolving thing isn't it? I would have thought things would have moved on a bit faster. I realize the Leah has respect for his Mom and her feelings and not wanting to cause her any embarrassment in our very small town. We lost Leah's Dad in November of 2004. So Dad knew nothing and as far as that goes neither does anyone else at this point...I'm the only one Leah has confided in. I make no judgment in the issue. I only wish she would have shared all this sooner so she could have been relieved of so much pressure she felt all that time.
My side the family is so far away that they have never been very involved in our lives anyway. I'm forth in a line of eleven children all with the same parents too. They rarely ever write or call or travel across the mile to visit us. In 25 years I have traveled home only 4 times. I used to call and write but decided the one-way thing was not very fulfilling. So now it's been 2 years since contact.
Leah is has been on hormone replacement therapy for some months now. When she's moody I tell her and then we do what needs to be done to fix it. More sleep, more hormones, Talk about what or how she's feeling, what ever it takes. She gets depressed sometimes because the choice to wait till her mom is not here to see the changes. I tell her I understand and that she may want to rethink this issue when it makes her so unhappy at times. I had a hormone crash myself some 9 years ago but only finally found out what was happening and causing my health issues a year and 4 months ago. So I can see some of the signs coming. I take boi-idenical hormones now too.
Leah doesn't really want to dress the part of female. But has started that recently because of requirements for SRS. The name choice is for that reason also. Some of this part is confusing to me. But as long as she knows what she wants that's what's important. Her pace at developing into Leah is her own and has to be. Part of these choices is because of her size. She is 6'2" tall. 200 Lbs. very muscular, and slightly balding and a receding hairline. Her work she's done since 16 has been manually requiring this body build. This past year she has been trying to figure out what else we can do for her vocation. That's still in the figuring stage.
I have done many things mostly dealing with working with children. Tottering, teaching baton twirling, dance, gymnastics and pageant coordination, make up and clothing and interviewing and modeling. I have taught school. I have worked in an answering service, and hotel desk clerk. For the past 6 years I have been and enjoy very much my position as a Tupperware Executive Manager.
There! That's me. And a condense version of our story.
I've read a lot on Susan Place. I've been very impressed with how encouraging everyone is. How supportive from both side of the scene, those living out these issues and those living with them. As we continue into the path we share I'm glad to know you are here for us. So Thank for being you! And Thanks for being there for us all.
Smiles, and bless you each and everyone,
Peggiann
