Yet another rant, I know I know. Just something I need to rant about.
I came out to my friends a few months ago, and nothing really happened. We avoided the subject, I got the impression none of them care, they'd much rather talk about their boyfriends or One Direction.
It's not just with my transition they're unsupportive. They know music is my passion, and yet have complete ->-bleeped-<-fits if I try to share my music with them because it's not to their tastes, but if I complain about them talking about their music NON STOP they tell me it'd be better if I sat with other people, and when I told them I was learning drums they got me to play something to then criticise me and everything I was doing.
It's not like I can just ragequit and never see them again, we're in all the same classes and sit together at school, impossible to avoid.
But what really pushed me to the edge is when they were blatantly dismissive about my transition and even refusing to call me by my new name. The reason was that it was too confusing because someone changed their name a year ago and they're still getting used to that, and now they're saying they won't call me by my new name until it's on the class register.
Is it just me being inpatient or is it not that difficult to call someone by a new name and different pronouns? Yeah, it takes getting used to but straight up refusing? Maybe it's just me being cranky.
I don't know what to do, I'm increasingly unhappy with female pronouns and my old name, but changing my name to male in an all girl's school is difficult in itself, never mind also having to come out to my dad to do that.
I'm ALWAYS there for my friends, no matter what it is if offer my best help and advice because they're my friends, why is it when I need something it's too much for them? Might just be me, but I can't deal with this.
Strangers, people I've met on here have shown me greater kindness than anyone irl that I've ever met, my real friends are here, but it's lonely. I don't know what to do.
