Just wanted to say...

[Taka]

i like the sound of rattling chains, mark.
there is no need to change unless that need comes from within.
an if it does come from within, and nothing is there to stop you, it is not too late as long as you still live.
some medical transformations may be difficult for medical reasons though.

[Shantel]

There's none sweeter than you Stephanie!

I made it clear some time back that Androgyne now the Non-Binary forum was my base camp, but I flit around all the forums and feel equally welcomed by all and have loads of MtF, FtM and cross dressing friends here as well as NB buddies and consider Susan's Place my own big extended family. Siblings bicker, it's invariably tied to some kind of emotional immaturity and lack of self control, but that's true in all families. I personally feel that the key to being real to everyone here is to get a sense of personal ownership so that we don't allow ourselves to become a blemish in the fabric of Susan's Place and ruin it's reputation as the world's foremost transgender support site. I'd hate to think someone would harm themselves because I selfishly allowed myself to lose control and have a childish tantrum at their expense.

[Pikachu]

*huggles Auntie Shan*

[Shantel]

*huggles Auntie Shan*

Back atcha Sweet Pea!

[Mark3]

it is not too late as long as you still live.
some medical transformations may be difficult for medical reasons though.

I got thinking, and it's probably important to tell you this,
because it is a big factor in my attitude, and if you don't know this,
it will be difficult for people to understand why I say some of the things I say.
It's not meant to be negativity or giving up on my journey, it's just that I have
severe liver disease, that incapacitates me in fatigue about 1/2 of each day,
and I'm not certain I can be put on a transplant list for technical reasons.
That is just an aspect of my life I think about when I post here, and maybe some might not Get me.?
I don't want pity or anyone being sorry for me, I own this, it's of my own making, and I take full responsibility for it.!
I just want you to know, to understand me better here. 

[Shantel]

I'll not treat you to a load of pity, but I am still very sorry that you have such a big life threatening burden on your plate because from what I've observed you are a very nice and sensitive person, and it's just a huge shame that you have to bear this. You had told me this before and though it puts a crimp in your transitional plans, it doesn't make you any less a part of us honey.

[Mark3]

Thanks Shanie,
There is absolutely nowhere I'd rather be than here with everyone.!!

[Pikachu]

*hugs*

I'm definitely glad you're here, Mark, and second what Shan said. You seem like a caring person.

[mrs izzy]

I got thinking, and it's probably important to tell you this,
because it is a big factor in my attitude, and if you don't know this,
it will be difficult for people to understand why I say some of the things I say.
It's not meant to be negativity or giving up on my journey, it's just that I have
severe liver disease, that incapacitates me in fatigue about 1/2 of each day,
and I'm not certain I can be put on a transplant list for technical reasons.
That is just an aspect of my life I think about when I post here, and maybe some might not Get me.?
I don't want pity or anyone being sorry for me, I own this, it's of my own making, and I take full responsibility for it.!
I just want you to know, to understand me better here. 

We all have our own paths to walk in life. Some easier, some harder.

Thing is we all walk it together and always here when someone needs help.

Hugs

[Taka]

i was thinking of your condition when i wrote that, mark. and all the others who cannot safely get different kinds of medical treatments.
but it will never be too late to seek out truth and learning to live truthfully. mesical transition may help a lot, some even believe it is necessaryand maybe it is for them. but seeing people go through life with extreme chronical pain but never letting it stop thwm, i have come to think that a lack of perfect health or wholeness of body and mind, can't be the only way to find happuness and a life worth living. i realize any other route may be difficult to find, but i have to believe it is possiblefor the sake of those who have found themselves unable to transition medically.

i don't know if my dysphoria is more or less than anyone else's. i have been wishing for a medical excuse other than trans for removing unwanted body parts. i have been thinking that i wouldn't ever find gappuness without transitioning. i have found it extremely mebtally painful to be called a gender i am not, even when i was not trying to preaent as any other. the pain came from knowing i couldn't possibly pass as the opposite gender.

but i am still here and happier than ever befor even without transitioning. the wish to transition is still there, but it's not eating me up. it seems that learning to accept myself and the realities of my situation on a much deeper level than what society will ever look for, has helped me find what is needed to avoid wasting so much time ob ubhappiness and dissatisfaction. does not mean i am satisfied with the lack of options where i live, i just won't let it drag me down for more than moments at a time.