I have been choosing to stay outside so i could save money for an apartment here in San Francisco, and everything was going well until it rained, I had no tent so I woke up soaked and all my things soaked. I then had 2 sleep on the bus and then the next night the ocean and even stayed up until some money came so I could do laundry and get my little dwelling back to where it was comfortable again. So a week later back to normal. 2 months of being undisturbed and came back one night (after having coffee) it was all gone, cleaned out and such. I suspect it could have been someone who had been watching me OR was in fact a park worker. I filed a police report, which I had to because ALL my medicine was among the items take as well as my $350 resmed cpap device.
So from there i was just out of my gord, becuase I was just going to get a public storage and had just enough spare money for it. So I went about 3 days without medicine and it was not fun, not to mention was stuck relying on dining halls and charity for meals.
Thankfully still have the membership at the ymca, so i can keep clean but this is really taxing me. Im still being bit by mosquitos of course as icing on the cake because all my repellent was taken.
I feel fat,tired,sore and worn out emotionally. I do have some support here but its mostly in alameda where I can't get to at the moment. But at least it wont be long until I have some more money. I am getting on a list for housing next week, because I just can't deal with this much longer.
I truly feel alone though, because none of my family seem to care where I am (save for those on facebook) I feel like the black sheep who should just stay in the pen and never come out.
I look nothing like a girl, i feel stuck in between and I am starting to fear the future for all the brave Talk I may tell people.
