Susan's Place Logo

News:

Based on internal web log processing I show 3,417,511 Users made 5,324,115 Visits Accounting for 199,729,420 pageviews and 8.954.49 TB of data transfer for 2017, all on a little over $2,000 per month.

Help support this website by Donating or Subscribing! (Updated)

Main Menu

Re-examining my childhood

Started by April Lee, October 20, 2014, 12:11:18 PM

Previous topic - Next topic

0 Members and 1 Guest are viewing this topic.

April Lee

My therapist and I have been talking about my childhood a great deal lately, which has caused me to look at old things in a new light. I have been focusing on songs with which I became especially enamored in my early youth. They were songs that literally brought chills to me, and I would listen to them over and over again, but I didn't think about any particular significance then beyond just an enjoyment of music. But now in the light of a new emerging understanding of myself, I invariably see a deeper meaning in them. So was the case here:

The Seekers - Georgy Girl
  •  

Rose City Rose

I love that song!

There's another song by the Seekers called "Colours of my Life" that makes me think of how happy I am to go out with my fiance now, dressed in bright colors and feminine cuts rather than hiding my body under drab colored khaki pants and polo shirts.

*Started HRT January 2013
*Name and gender marker changed September 2014
*Approved and issued letters for surgery September 2015
*Surgery Consultation November 2015
*Preop electrolysis October 2016-March 2019
*GRS April 3 2019
I DID IT!!!
[/color]
  •  

April Lee

It's funny, but in thinking about "Georgy Girl, I just had a startling revelation. I remember where that song got played all the time. My first cousin, Karen, lived a block away from me when I was a child. She was a year older than me, and it was the late 60s. She was at the onset of puberty, and she was into all the popular culture things that an adolescent girl would like, such as the fashion and music of that era. I used to go over to her house and hang out with her, listening to her records. I used to think that there wasn't anything that I could remember from my childhood that would indicate that I had an identity of being female then, or really wished to be a girl. But in thinking about it all now, I recognize something that I hadn't before. My feelings toward Karen were a combination of admiration and envy. If I had been able to understand it all then, I would have figured it out that she was a role model for me that I wanted to emulate. Those feelings are perfectly clear to me now.
  •