In my youth, listening to this song had a profound influence on me, but I didn't understand then exactly why. I did know that the words echoed of something deep within me, and yes, they had the effect of making me want to engage in girly thoughts, but I couldn't exactly figure it all out.
I heard them today, and I burst out crying. I cry a lot these days, but this was the cry of all cries. Now on this journey, I completely get it. The words of this song are my life.
I apologize to Joni Mitchell who put my soul to music, but it was Judy Collins' version which made me think about what could have been.
"Both Sides Now" - Judy Collins (Words and Music by Joni Mitchell)
Bows and flows of angel hair and ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere, I've looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun they rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done, but clouds got in my way
I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down and still somehow
It's cloud's illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all
Moons and Junes and ferris wheels the dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real, I've looked at love that way
But now it's just another show, you leave 'em laughin when you go
And if you care don't let them know, don't give yourself away
I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud, to say, "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds, I've looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange they shake their heads, they say
I've changed
But something's lost but something's gained in living every day
I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
