Confidence in school

[Serenahikaru]

Lately I've been feeling rather confident with being myself even though I haven't started hormones.  I've began to wear eyeliner daily after one of my friends told me it looks good on me. A few days we had a character day for spirit week and some of my female friends did a gender bender thing and one had an amazing beard she did with make up, I used that day to be myself and wore a dress, heeled boots and a wig. That was an amazing day, even before then I wore girl shirts but wavered to take my jacket off.
Without saying I get attention, but surprising I like it. My parents still give me hell but my sister said she'll give me her old clothes. 
As for today I sort of woke up in a depressed mood and stayed that way for a while, so I didn't sneak anything out today.  But it's no good staying depressed so I snapped myself out of it.

[Auroramarianna]

It's really really awesome that you're gaining that confidence! I'm so jelly. I wish I had that confidence, you're very brave! When I remember my high school, there's no way I would be brave enough to wear makeup to school because I knew I would get lots of comments and whispers and I personally couldn't handle it. Now I am more mature but I am still very cautious. Also, your avatar is totally cutie!! I love it ehehe

[Serenahikaru]

I'll admit I felt bad the first time, but I was more annoyed that discouraged.  And thank you ^^ It's an Espurr, which is a Pokemon.

[Foxglove]

Well done, Serena!  I admire your spirit.  You're teaching your classmates that there is such a thing as ->-bleeped-<- in this world.  A very useful lesson for them to learn while they're still young.

[Serenahikaru]

Thank you ^//^ but I'm sure they only see it as gay right now ...>> Hopefully we'll make progress on that.

[Auroramarianna]

Thank you ^//^ but I'm sure they only see it as gay right now ...>> Hopefully we'll make progress on that.

Um, yeah, most likely, yes, you are right. I have always had a higher voice and most people automatically assumed I was gay, well, I do like men so they were only partly right lol, but a high voice doesn't mean you're gay or transgender. It means you have small vocal cords. However, I have been feminine in many other ways as well so it was very hard for me. I just want to tell that you're amazing for being vulnerable and thus strong, confusing ehehe? Wearing makeup doesn't mean anything about you or your sexuality or gender identity, it just means you like it. That should be answer to any b*tchy or bigot who harasses you, you don't have to come out to them or anything, you don't have to assume anything if you don't want. If the situation becomes too painful to bear, then don't wear to school or wear less. Sure, it is unpleasant but your safety comes first, but whatever you do, know that abuse is always unjustified and you don't deserve it.

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[Emily1996]

I wish I was more confident too, but I just can't D: I would like to wear some more make up at school I guess I will start once I start laser maybe or not. I'm just really shy. I think you're really brave! I'm in high school too.

[Auroramarianna]

I wish I was more confident too, but I just can't D: I would like to wear some more make up at school I guess I will start once I start laser maybe or not. I'm just really shy. I think you're really brave! I'm in high school too.

omg your makeup is awesome!! I wish I could do makeup. you look really lovely pre-HRT too, oh, and your voice is sweet too

[Emily1996]

omg your makeup is awesome!! I wish I could do makeup. you look really lovely pre-HRT too, oh, and your voice is sweet too

Well actually i'm a month in I have my 1 month update on my channel if you want to check it out (subtle promo LOL), but I had no facial changes so it's kinda like I'm still pre-hrt, and I think I will need to stop hrt soon too... unsupportive people around me.

[Foxglove]

I wish I could do makeup.

I'm pretty good with make-up myself.  It was a lot of work and practice, but eventually I started getting good results.  And if I can do it, anybody can do it.  And I mean anybody--because nobody could possibly be more clumsy than me.

[Serenahikaru]

I wish I was more confident too, but I just can't D: I would like to wear some more make up at school I guess I will start once I start laser maybe or not. I'm just really shy. I think you're really brave! I'm in high school too.

I think you would be fine, just take one step at a time. An older friend of mine who's also trans told me there will always be someone to comment, so I say why care about what they think.  Life is too short for regrets and an unhappy life isn't worth living.