Hello,
I am Jessika (Yes, the "k" is correct).
I am 47 and known since I was little that there is something different about me. I dressed in Sisters and Moms clothes and the dressing ramped up over the years.
At 18 I joined the Military thinking I could brush off the feelings I have but they were lingering and there seemed no escape. I got married to a wonderful Lady and we have been married 21 yrs now and still are. I did retire from the Military after 20 yrs in of service in 2005 with an Honorable discharge.
My wife knows I dress and have done so many times. I am 6ft 210lbs (Just lost 10 lbs over the last month) but I have a broad physique so it's mostly top heavy.
I kinda hint towards my wife what is getting stronger in regards to feelings and just about 3-4 days ago she asked me "When are we going to tell everyone you're coming out?"
I was surprised she knew that term, "Coming out". I told her I will decide the right time and "IF/When" I am diagnosed by a therapist. She also thinks my condition is not real and does not understand it yet.
Well, I have been in contact with a Post-Op Lady that is Retired Military and she has been a great help.
I also contacted a Gender Therapist and I will schedule my first Therapy session on Monday if all goes well.
So, I am very happy to be here and meet new people that in one way or another experienced the same feelings as I have, and now trying to put it all into perspective.
Jessika or "Jess"
