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Feeling like a different person.

Started by Heather, October 19, 2014, 02:08:22 PM

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Heather

I don't know if anybody can relate to this? But since transitioning I don't feel like the same person anymore. I don't like the same things I did before transition. I don't like the same books, movies, or games I even like different food. I'm not complaining I do love my life now and I'm enjoying it way more than ever before. It's just I feel like I'm someone I don't know and everyday I'm learning something new I didn't know about myself.
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Sandy74

I am not in the same boat as you or even close but I think that is great that you are changing and I envy that you are. I really wish that I had the chance to transition and perhaps someday I will. I am sure that everything changes when you transition, I would just go with the flow of it and let the journey takes you where it goes. I am so jealous :)
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Jessica Merriman

There with you girl!!  ;)

I actually have days I don't remember feelings, plans, goals or anything about my previous life. It is almost like it was a nightmare or something. :) For me that is wonderful!!  :laugh:

I would really have to work at it to act like HIM now.
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JulieWeeks

It sounds like you are discovering what the real you is all about and I bet it feels amazing.
BElieve in YOUrself
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Jill F

Interesting.  I pretty much like all the same things I did before transition.  The thing was that I avoided traditionally feminine activities and behaviors like the plague before because they were dysphoria triggers.  Cooking, dancing, sewing and romantic comedies are examples of things I can enjoy now.
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ImagineKate

I would love to feel different. I don't see myself being a different person though. Why? Many of the things that make me what I am I do now. The way I walk, talk, interact with people, get emotional etc. new hobbies and interests? I would be extremely surprised if I stopped liking the outdoors, guns, photography and ham radio. I have varied taste in food and my favorite movies are chick flicks and Disney animated movies.
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Heather

Quote from: Sandy74 on October 19, 2014, 02:12:32 PM
I am not in the same boat as you or even close but I think that is great that you are changing and I envy that you are. I really wish that I had the chance to transition and perhaps someday I will. I am sure that everything changes when you transition, I would just go with the flow of it and let the journey takes you where it goes. I am so jealous :)
They're is nothing to be jealous of. I was once in your position thinking this day would never come and it did. The best advice I can give is realize your in charge of your own life. And not to let fear keep you from being yourself.
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valkeroxide

I'm 2.5 months into HRt & I've noticed, especially within the last week, I feel more and more "like a different person."

Yesterday, my friend invited me to drink beer at a lake party after work (I really just went for him! lol). At any rate, my career involves wearing rough, heavy, baggy clothes. So, everyone there was a "man's man" and everyone was more/less dressed the same. I began to notice "not because I fancy any guy there", that I was reeeeeallly wishing to be wearing girl's clothes after some guy was like, "Yeah!, this is great... A guy's night with no girls around!"

In all, after he said that, I was wishing I'd be recognized as the only girl there (even though I invited my friend but she bailed)..... even then, to be the only two girls there would have been f'n awesome.

Idk, I suppose I've grown incredibly bored with the manly "bro" relationships. I've actually been hanging with my buddy's wife on days off and co-workers are starting to think I'm sleeping with her or something. lol

On another note, since my breasts have started to hurt and my bum is a little bit more plush, I look at cis girls with almost Zero to no lust now.... Only because I see it in myself now and I'm all "yeah, big deal" haha. "kinda like that gay guy helping models get ready..... zero loin rustles had"..

I guess my thoughts are based on physical things but I fully expect to have other mindset changes as things progress and I can eventually come out completely.
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suzifrommd

Quote from: Heather on October 19, 2014, 02:08:22 PM
I don't know if anybody can relate to this? But since transitioning I don't feel like the same person anymore.

Things I used to love, no longer appeal to me. I used to be a strategy board game nut. Now I can take or leave them. Used to love watching football. Don't care so much. Used to hate shopping. Now it relaxes me.

I'm definitely a different person.
Have you read my short story The Eve of Triumph?
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