When did you all you were trans? Like how and what age? For MTF Trans

[zoe91]

This is a hard question to answer and I think it depends on what you mean and how you think about it and that changes. I knew I wanted to transition including having surgery by the time I was 28. I self medicated which felt great although it didn't work out well for me (got a kidney stone). Still I knew it was what I needed to do. This is not something I could have said when I was 4. Back then I wanted to have long hair and was attracted to stereotypically girly things. Between these times I dressed occasionally in private hated my male bits and experienced a lot of complicated and mixed feelings. Add to that social pressure and a family that did not accept my feminine traits and it took a while to work it all out. What I would say is that if you want to explore a feminine side then do it. Whether that's to have more female friends to wear some makeup or dress then do it. What you want and feels right for you will hopefully become clear.

[Frankie]

Me, I was about 6 when I knew something was wrong, back in those days you didn't talk about these things let alone bring it out in the open. I thought I had this under control until a breakdown about 25 years ago. Looking back in hindsight it seemed like a pit stop to regroup to reach this time in my life, a few months ago it hit me like a runaway freight train! All of a sudden I was losing control and losing the battle I've been fighting all these years. I only recently learned that I was trans (M2F), I have had sexual orientation questions for years but have managed to bury, repress and control them until recently. I just started getting professional help only in the last few weeks and have been officialy diagnosed with G.I.D. plus the smaller storms that accompany this tornado that has been tearing up my life for decades. Don't wait as long as I did to talk to someone and maybe get professional help, I was too ashamed and felt too much guilt to be able to seek help, as a result I suffered one complete break down 25 years ago and was headed to another one recently when I decided to swallow my pride and get help. I wish you the best on your journey.

[edin01]

For me I think I was about 9 or 10 years old, it's hard to determine really as I didn't really think about it at the time; it was just normal, just me.  Apparently when I was very young I told my mum I wanted to be a girl, but I can't remember that.  I went through quite a dysphoric stage in my teens, but managed to keep it all to myself and decided I couldn't do anything about it.  I'm 37 now so that's a long time to keep things like that to myself!

[Jessika]

For me as a 47 yr old it was hard to be who you wanted, growing up. I was always playing the Girly games (House, Dolls, Roleplaying) while young. As I grew older I tended to start dressing in Moms and Sisters clothes.
My Bio-Dad left us when I was about 7 and until age 10 or 11 had no father figure. I went thru school as a loner pretty much with not too many friends. Very shy and drawn back and away from others.

At 18 after graduating HS in 1985 I joined the Navy and did a 20 yr career. That time kinda built up my masculine aspects but during those times I dressed secretly and was much more afraid to go out and be seen so I only did it at night and even rented hotels to have a place to change.
I remember one weekend when I was about 19, stationed in Charleston SC, driving a 69 Mustang late at night coming across a bridge dressed up, I saw police lights on the bridge. I thought it was a checkpoint for drunks, but I havn't been drinking.
I stopped at the foot of the bridge (Big mistake), no other cars around and decided what I wanted to do. I was nervous. I decided to continue on and as soon as I passed the cop he pulled me over. My Heart was in my nostrils. lol
He asked me to step out and asked me why I stopped at the foot of the bridge? It was suspicious to him is why he pulled me over. I had no wig on, just a skirt, blouse and heels. He kinda lifted the back of my skirt up (Curiosity back in 1986) and was met with a Garter belt and Stockings and a full cover panty. He made me wait while he looked thru my car, found nothing.
"If I were you, I'd be careful out there." he told me and let me go. I was shaking so bad I will never forget that night in '86. lol

Here I am at 47, Love my Wife and very attracted to her and woman, BUT...it seems I am starting to have a thing for Men(Past 6 months or so..No hormones, nothing..YET). Is that wrong? Is that ok?

Jess

[Emy Lotten]

I think i knew it my whole life, allways played with dolls and stole make-up from my sisters when i was 10.
I started accepting it when i tought why i would be thinking to change into a girl even though i have been born a guy.

That pretty much sums up my experience with coming out of the closet..
Just take it one step at the time, in the past 6 months i try to tell 1 extra person every month my secret, now pretty much everyone knows it.

Love,
Emy