Confused

[MichaelaJamaica]

Ever since I was very young, I wanted to be a female, but I carried on as a normal male. But I never forgot the desires I had at such a young age. I was always fascinated with males who changed their gender. About a few months back I had a dream that I was transitioning as a transsexual, so from then on I started doing the research online about transitioning and ever since I've been wanting to go through with being the opposite sex. But at the end of the day there is the life I live now, high school senior, 2 sport athlete, and I battle with wanting to become something completely different. Honestly I don't know if should start my Mtf transition or continue life in the skin I'm in, please help!!!!

[Jo-is-amazing]

You Sound Like me!!!!!!!
I had exactly the same moment, probably  exactly the same time you did (in your life)...you know you don't have to do things overtly to prepare yourself for next year right?
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Therapists and what not take aaaaaages, and most won't prescribe anything a lot of the time to under 18's anyways
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The thing you need to realise is the perspective on your dreams, like say your dream is to play professional sport or whatever (mine's to work as a diplomat or in the ICC as a prosecutor), and doing this effectively means you can't do that, or that it will be much more difficult to do that. But what are the odds of you fulfilling your dream anyway,I mean you might want to be an NFL footballer (I don't know ) but the chance of you doing that might be 1 in 1000, it might even be 1 in 10 000, but if you decide to transition you WILL...be a girl, I mean you are already one now
But the world will see you as one, especially at your age

Hope that helped

[V M]

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[Mark3]

It sounds like you enjoy your sports and other things you're doing right now.?
Jo-is-amazing is right, if you start transition those things will likely all go away.

Maybe a good next step would be to talk to a gender therapist, explain how you feel, and they will surely be able to answer your questions clearly.

[Jo-is-amazing]

@mark, that's not necessarily true, only like aspirations for professional sport.I was just making the point that putting off a chance to be hapay because something that MIGHT happen in the future is now certain to not happen, is something we all need to evaluate.

For me personally my happiness was more important, but it took soooooooooo much effort and anguish to work that out

[Taka]

i went into high school thinking i'd become a professional violinist.
found out i like linguistics better.

being good at something doesn't mean it will make you happy.
it's usually easy to become good at thing that do make you happy.

life is a path full of branches going into unknown territory. some even stop at pitfalls or the edge of a cliff.
taking a different turn is something only you can decide.
unless it's decided for you by accident or disease.

it all comes down to whether you believe something has potential as a source of happiness.
or how much you feel you'll regret a choice if everything goes wrong.

making rash choices isn't necessary. gender therapists are there to help you find your own right answer.

a couple questions to help you think though.
do you need to transition right now, or could you put it off for 5-10 years (and risk male patter hair loss, and facial masculinization) for the sake of a sports carrier?
will you regret not giving it your all and see how far you can go as an athlete?
what do you want to do in college, and what steps do you have to take, or avoid taking, in order to do that?

they're not things i'm really wondering, but i thought maybe you would find them worth considering for a moment.