Okay so I have to have a meeting with all my teachers, my dean, counselor, and possibly mom and granma (probably not as it might create more issues) with what to call me. I told my teachers that I wish to go by Chris and use male pronouns. A few slip ups but overall nothing bad. Until my counselor told me that a few teachers called her concerned if it was okay/legal. She asked me and it went back to them but after my third teacher she suggested a meeting with all of them to get common ground with each teacher. So far I'm okay but nervous! I don't want to go to a meeting with ALL my teachers. It's kinda weird.
Overall I'm actually okay because it shows they're at least attempting to go by what I asked and are trying to know what I want to make me feel comfortable. They also wanna know what to do if students approach them and want to know if I'm a guy or girl, what my name is, etc. etc. I'm fine except these are high school students who I learned can be sensible or downright ignorant. So we gotta watch for that.
So anyway, I'm just satisfied with the fact that we're getting this over and done with and finding common ground. I'll tell them to tell students to come to me because in all reality, I actually don't know what to tell them to say.
Now my friends are also why I feel happy. I played the happy game with myself when I was feeling down and named everything that makes me happy at school (felt super depressed earlier). One thing was my friends immediate acceptance with my preferences. It's actually to a point where I screwed up on the catwalk. Basically, we go about 20ft in the air and walk across a wooden slate of wood with a harness on, belaying it is. When I got across and halfway back a guy yelled, "don't look down ____!" I hear my friend yell out to him, "It's Chris, not ____!" I started laughing and actually lost my balance and fell over to the guy yelling "Nice job,
Chris."
That actually made me smile. Then later on my friend, who's having bf problems, came to me and said, "You're a super sweet guy. Actually a better one than (insert bfs name)" I just look surprised and she looks back and said, "I have problems imagining you as a girl now btw." I just laughed cause it was actually a bit funny just how random it was. But also I felt super special and sorta grabbed/hugged her.
Anyway I just feel so happy right now. My friends are taking it well, actually correcting each other frequently (as in when they mess up, about 2secs. goes by before they're corrected) and one friend even said she forgot my real name only cause I've been Chris to her for a minute. My teachers seem fine with it and a few are doing very well and calling me Chris more often to get used to it. I pass with strangers at work and coworkers and I'm just happy with that. I know this feeling won't last long but dang it, I'm happy!
