The nonbinary process- tell us of your journey down that path to the forest

[Satinjoy]

Cool taka hope it works out well for you.

I had the guts to go full tilt gq to my endo today.  Levels are too low so up goes the ecyp dose again, hope it's right.  But the validation I got with this presentation, now much more andro, was nice, the receptionist commented on my nails, nice, and I got a knee-jerk ....you're beautiful... in as that turned out to be real, the guy thought I was eye candy.


This is working for me now....

Meanwhile I lean hard on my trans family.  Need to.

Blessings

Satinjoy

[Dread_Faery]

Good luck with your new GP Taka, it's a big thing finding one who actually wants to help

[Mark3]

"It takes a long time"..!

It's weird...
Here I can feel free to share the most personal things without a care or apprehension.

It's taken a long time to get comfortable like that on my other pages.?

Tonight on my FB, I posted "My Chic Mind was taking over, and I was going to go to some other pages"..
I never would have said that before, I have neighbors and people from my real life reading it..?
I was terrified being openly honest like that around them.

But I did, and have been openly honest for a while now, and it hasn't seemed to caus any troubles at all,
in fact I've gotten positive replies, cuz I guess they knew I was always like that.? Or something.? I don't know.?

All I know is it takes a lot of time to get comfortable being yourself around others, especially those we care about most, cuz we have more to loose from them I suppose..

Well, thats my thoughts tonight.
PS. and yeah, haha, my chic mind is still in gear... 

[Taka]

the greatest revelation was that i can be me even if my body isn't perfect enough to reflect what i feel like inside.
i can't prove dysphoria in any "classical" way. too happy for that, wouldn't even consider suicide over something like having some parts too many or little.
think i'll have to use the weekend for writing my not too long presentation of myself, my background, and how my little problem has affected my life.

it's good that my gp is positive and wants to help.
only problem is that he has no idea how, so this will take some time.
i really hope nobody will try to stop me from getting help with this.
that i can have a happy life even without treatment doesn't mean that i'll be content with my situation. it's distracting in many situations, painful other times, so...
how do i write that so medical professionals can understand this kind of need...

[Satinjoy]

Taka your situation drives me crazy, I get frustrated and wish there was a way for you to get what your heart desires, you certainly deserve that.

I don't know what gp is.  General practioner or gender policeperson maybe.  Wonder what would happen if you visited the states for 4 months, saw my therapist, walked out with your non binary letter of recommendation and presented it as complying to the SOC in your country, requiring hormones to meet your needs.  If it came to that. 

Dunno.   Cant figure it out, just feel outraged.

As to Mark, yeah, the quiet times, its Thursday morning and I am full transition and in something unwise to print on Susans that I used to wear in the heart of my compulsive trans behaviors.  Now its just me, natural.  But I choose who I reveal to, there are places I am full throttle, places I am half throttle, and places where I have my foot off the gas.  Car is the same high horsepower androyne body, but I don't push it too hard, although my social boundaries and home boundaries are reset now further to the so called female side of presentations.

Anyway I am happy for you.  And you can say anything in here, this place is very, very special.

[Taka]

my situation is that either my gp will do his best to get educated and give me what i'm seeking, or i have no choice but to go to harry benjamin's good disciples at the national gid clinic. but i don't feel like raging too much at it. instead i'll go through a process where i make myself more visible, and challenge the system as it is today.

[Mark3]

I to, want so bad for Taka's hearts desires to be fulfilled.!
I am similar with little or no dysphoria, I really get that.

Yes I kinda understand that SatinJoy.
Sometimes I dream at night all these things, I mean pretty risque things, all having to do with myself expressing different feelings of trans.. Like I was trapped in a clothing store overnight, and it was so vivid trying things for the first time.? Yikes, don't read this mom.! But then I wake up, and its just SSDD (same s%$# different day).. Just subconscious jibber jabber I guess, yet they move me slightly in real life somehow.?

I'm glad I'm not in a hurry now to figure things out, cuz I think now that getting there is half the fun..I wish some of the young newer binary members could see that..

[Shantel]

my situation is that either my gp will do his best to get educated and give me what i'm seeking, or i have no choice but to go to harry benjamin's good disciples at the national gid clinic. but i don't feel like raging too much at it. instead i'll go through a process where i make myself more visible, and challenge the system as it is today.

Good plan Taka, probably the best considering how things are in the Norsk countries. NatKat "Tony" is an activist, he and I have discussed this at great length. I hardily concur with your plan on a personal level, as that was my own approach as I did an end run around the Benjamin Standards myself. I think I was most put off by the RLE requirement at the time as I couldn't envision myself in a woman's dress for one year. But back then, no-one would have heard of non-binary as an option to the two binaries.

[EchelonHunt]

Taka, I hope everything goes smoothly. I am thinking of you and wishing all the best!