Hi Heidi!
I know you're not alone because I was right there. Continued denial of who I am was killing me. Had I not found the strength to make my first post here I don't know if I'd be alive right now. I was in a very dark place, too. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I'm so happy for you that you found it in you to accept who you are. Isn't it amazing? I don't think I slept more than 2-3 hours a night for the first week after I joined.
Many people have gone to some pretty severe extremes to deny who they are. It's not your fault. Society at large makes the trans community out to be sick, horrible people. The good news is that this is simply not true. It can even be argued that the vast majority of the people here have carried that same weight and so they've become the strongest, the kindest, most supportive people I'll ever have the privilege to know. I include you in that group.
This is a safe place, my new sister, I promise. You can ask many questions, read anything that suits your fancy, PM me and/or anyone else to ask even more questions, and take your own sweet time figuring yourself out. I know Jess means it when he writes, "welcome to the family." And I do, too. You have family here now.
love,
-maggie
