Seriously though,
One of the best things about trans to me is my "alone time"..
In the real world, we all have our demons, insecurities, apprehensions and fears concerning trans and living open day to day.
But when I'm alone, I can really really really be me, and since I discovered myself, its so much better of a life, and I'm so much happier, its like a drug when I'm alone, and can be 100% high octane trans me..! I still can't do that in public, not sure when, or if I'll ever be able to do that fully.??
Like I was thinking tonight, I'm going to be able now to someday kneel before God, and be able to thank him for making me this way, finally I understand what " making me this way" really means, and its earth shaking to me.!
I'm being more open now to my best friends(3) in real life, and its going fairly well. I'm still pretty much a bumbling fool around strangers though, but I know my introvert personality has much to do with that..
But online, I'm feeling very comfortable now being open and authentic, and wondering why I had such fear in the first place.? I have some from here on my Fb now, so I know I'm in very good company, even with my CIS friends.. I'm really feeling very confident..
I'm also starting to be a little more curious about presentation, something I swore I'd never feel, but I'm sensing now when I start flowing towards my female mind, and maybe feel there's something lacking in my appearance when I'm in that place.? I guess that is another topic for another day.?
Now I've forgot the original topic questions, so I'm ending here..