When I was 16 I would cross dress and go out in public....barely a look from anyone or anything said to me, and this wasn't during a time where people were more accepting. I felt like a woman and thought I looked fairly good. Not much different than how things are now.....but in reality it is 1000% different than now. Mainly cause I had to take it all off and also change my persona.
Fast forward many years till about 8 years ago. Still cross dressing but dressing more like a "cross dresser" still going out shopping and such...not getting too much attention but a few comments.....about 900% than now.
3 years pass and I finally admit I am transsexual (hate that word!) still cross dressing but not going out much, I feel a weight has been lifted and can now start to live my life like it was meant.....about 600% different than now
2 years of basically isolating myself and on unsubscribed hrt....starting to feel and appear as I should and even being gendered female at times......about 300% difference than now.
Another year and now on full dose of prescribe hrt....being gendered female constantly but living as a man. Feeling more like I should but still about 300% different than now. Mainly because I am still legally a man and working as one.
Another year pasts, hrt continues, name change, start new job as myself. come out to more family and people, body, face and hair is fairly decent and in the female range. I think this is what it's like to be a woman.....wrong still about 100% different than now.
3 years past, my appearance has changed a little more, have learned to style (or not style!) my hair, make up routine is....well routine, seeing female in mirror ALWAYS!! Finally this is what it means to be female....I am there!! But what happened in those 3 years to make this change feel more complete was how I was accepted and treated like any other female. Some good some bad....but all because I am a woman. Even when I am not looking so good....I am still a woman. How I feel now compare to even 3 years ago is 100% different....and even than I thought that was how it felt to be a woman. Compare to many years ago when 16....is completely nothing like I thought it would be. My life is so much the same, yet so so different! Some has been from just getting older, but I feel like such a normal woman and it had nothing to do with me trying....everyone else in society did it for me!!
What did it was living!! And I am positive 3 years form now I will feel it is almost 100% different....especially if I have grs!! Even just recently I am still learning why woman may treat men badly when it comes to dating......it is our chance to be in control. This is something I don't like to do to men or anyone....but hell I am a woman now and I want my free drinks!!!!
