Hello everyone, after reading along for quite a while I now decided to also register and start posting here.
I'm an FTM from Germany and you can call me Alex or Yven, whatever floats your boat.
Growing up, I definitely was identifying as male already. When I was 4 I asked my mother to cut my hair short, with
about nine years I asked my cousins to call me 'Alex' and in 6th grade I told my then-best friends that I wished to have SRS.
I probably would've come out around the beginning of puberty, if it wasn't for these two 'best friends' because they betrayed my trust
and tried to out me to my whole class. The response was overwhelmingly weird and basically shoved me back into the closet.
From the beginning of puberty up until I was 15 I was pretty feminine, or tried to be it, but have then started to dress and act how I am
comfortable again (masculine). That was a huge step for me and took a lot of courage (due to anxiety issues) but has actually helped a bit with my anxiety.
Earlier this year I tried to come out to my parents, and even though they are generally very LGBT-supportive they are afraid that I'm too young to know and might do something that I regret later on. That's why they asked me not to come out to anyone (except maybe closest friends) until at least another year, and also they won't buy me a binder. =(
I go to therapy, mainly for my anxiety though, but my therapist knows about my gender-questioning and is lately linking it to the anxiety, however it's not really gender therapy.
The next steps for me will be that I will try to get my hands on a binder, since I have immense chest dysphoria, and also come out to close friends early next year.
Aside from being trans I'm a lover of all things artistic, specially cinematography, photography and literature.
I'm also a music lover.
Looking forward to talking to you all,
Alex =)
