Hello Erika,
a big warm welcome to Susan's place. Here you will find many people that have shared the same feelings you are feeling. There is a vast amount of information and resources to be found here and it's all at your fingertips so pull up a chair, relax and let your fingers do the walking. I hope to see you around the forum. I wish you the best of luck on your journey and may the Angels be looking upon you and guide you on your path.
Hugs,
Melissa Ann