Everything happening so fast:o

[Emilyx]

I am tripping right now. I am simply just thinking about reality til my head gets dizzy!

I have for a year now, been honest whit my mom and sister about me being non-binary and my wish to transition into androgynous.
So a week ago I told them I was having trouble getting started and that i needed a kick in the butt. Same night they showed me how makeup works and I also posted a full makeup profile pic on facebook!! That was my first step ever towards androgynous. ( This was an awesome experience, they are amazing.)

Tomorrow they are visiting me in the town i am studying. They are going to take me shopping for makeup, clothes, shoes etc.. Everything femme. I am planning on keeping the look and show up to school wearing makeup and femme clothing!(next monday;O..)

I know 99% that this is what i want, but to be honest, i am tripping right now! I want to go through whit this. I am to lucky to have so accepting family and i don`t want to ->-bleeped-<- this up.....

It feels like i am 10y old, about to ride my first roller coaster. I am afraid of falling off and die.. I also really want to ride it!!!:d

[Alexis2107]

Congrats!  Making your first steps towards freedom.  You're glowing!

[Emilyx]

Thank you! ^ I hope so:)

[Taka]

lucky!
things only happen way too slow for me.
but if they suddenly start happening for real, maybe i'll also find myself on the way up to the first top of a rollercoaster.

[Emilyx]

Yah!, lucky me.. Postponing is a big issue.. if it weren`t for them, i dont know how long i would have waited..

Any specific reasons to why things are going slowly, Taka? Sorry if i ask to personal.

[Taka]

it's just a bad coutry to be nb in.
really difficult to find anyone at all who can help,
but i might get somewhere if my gp makes some effort.
he seems willing to, so there's still hope of avoiding binary transition.

[Jak]

That's terrific, Emilyx! So glad for you! Have fun and keep us posted.

[Trying to be me]

That's so great that your family is being so supportive. Plus , yay, shopping trip!