Hi Ashley,
A big warm welcome to Susan's place. The are many people here that have gone through or are going through the same feelings and emotions you are. There is a vast array of information and some great resources here on this site. Everything is right at you finger tips, so pull up a chair, relax and let your fingers do the walking. Glad to add another sister to our growing family. I do hope to see you around the forums. I wish you nothing but the best of luck on your journey and may the Angles look upon you and help guide you on your path.
Hugs,
Melissa Ann