Hi Elijah,
A big warm welcome to Susan's Place. It's nice to welcome another brother to the family. Look around this site as there are many beautiful people here that have gone through or are going through the same feelings and emotions you are. It would be a good idea to see a gender therapist to help you sort out who you are. The is a vast array of information and some great resources on this site. Everything is right at your finger tips so pull up a chair, relax and let your fingers do the walking. I wish you nothing but the best of luck on your journey and may the Angels always look upon you and help guide you on your path.
Hugs,
Melissa Ann