I wouldn't do either.Perhaps a more uncommon choice, but I see it this way:
Despite the frustration, the pain, the battle -- they are experiences I learn from: they are building blocks for the every changing and developing person I am. You cannot get answers for questions you never ask.
A lá cliché: wisdom is power, and I know that the path I'm on, despite rocky, is one that will make me stronger; is one that will tutor me about subjects I may have never known about otherwise. I would do neither, this is who I am and I will fight, bleed, hurt and cry, but also one day achieve the liberation, and experience the gratitude, self-sufficiency and satisfaction at the end of the road.
Heck, I'm young. What did you expect?