Quote from: jojoglowe on November 29, 2014, 12:50:24 PM
I had also internalized transphobia 
What helped me was getting in touch with energy healers. People who do stuff like reiki.
I also had the opportunity to try a psychoactive substance (DMT, in a legal setting) a few times, and it greatly helped me to accept myself.
DISCLAIMER: I would not suggest you try any substances in an illegal setting without the guidance of a professional. Also, there are phony/inexperienced energy workers. If you choose to have a reiki session, you should be able to feel the "electricity," if you don't feel it, you didn't actually get reiki.
Also, I understand some folks might think energy stuff like reiki is pseudo science or bologna. That's cool and I support you having your own beliefs, please reciprocate.
Dear Sad Panda,
Even above this, she was able to make progress. That doctor, psychologist, I went to also handled mystical things other than from my perspective it seemed to me, and she totally handled my internalized transphobia. Yet, she totally saw what was in me and with me mystically. She also knew I also loved being a female. If Reiki, works and always in a good way, never a bad way, then it also is really from God, and it is for your benefit and help to be healed, if you need healing. Girls need help we always do.
Transphobia, exists to some extent briefly in many many many transgendered people, and it usually passes as they transition. Mine is almost totally gone. If yours is exceptionally strong and resistant do what you need to in order to defeat this lie. However as you spoke of your future, mine went to zero, in a year and a few months more after transitioning and telling everyone I am trans. Letting those TROLLS exit after revealing themselves, is an amazing experience. Also, noting that TROLLS, in any area of life are TROLLS in all areas of life, excepting in acting and trying to present themselves as perfect loving people to the public, helps. My present inverstment advisor, who wanted nothing ever to do with a certain person, (A closeted Troll. ), told me he would never ever deal with this person I am talking about now, who horribly would Troll me, not only on being transgendered but in two other areas of my life also. This investment advisor said, all of my clients are nice and are my friends, I don't need nor want the others, No, I will not deal with that man again. I tried and tried, and was going to really make him take this man back again, until he outed himself to me, Horribly. Then I had to apologize to my investment advisor and handle this 'man' appropriately for his condition.
Trolls are never right, they just tell you they are and expect you to follow and believe them. They are the equivalent of Hitler-wanna-be's. That is an analogy, but horribly accurate.
Hating trans, or hating homosexuals, almost always stems from one source. It is that you are trans, and you don't want to be. Hating homosexuals is the same thing in studies. Some of which were done in emergency situations because some teenagers had done horrors to a homosexual. In that case, they found the teenagers had homosexual feelings, hated them probably, and then when faced with the awful truth of that, attacked the homosexual person who recently gave them those feelings.
Also hating actions is allowed like stealing, hating people is not allowed, you can't hate the thief it is incorrect, you hate the act. Trans is no act, you are no act after transitioning, you cannot hate yourself, you hate the act. If you hate anything regarding being trans, hate what you present as falsely, a guy in a girl's body or a girl in a man's body, for you are not your body in those cases, you are what you are inside, anything else is not true.
So, if that is correct, you are really fighting being disgusted over who you are, when the whole world is not disgusted at all by who you are, if they do not have your problem.
Recently, over and over again, the educated are fascinated by my issue, where I am still not entirely happy with it. I am learning to set aside those wrong emotions, and see myself correctly. When I am totally objective, in my situation, I am accepted and loved by the world and someday because I am a straight transgendered girl, some guy will think I am great and want to marry me for real.
It takes though work to realize I am fine. It is ever so common to think it would be easier, to not be trans and to hate everyone in the world for my horrible situation, when hatred of others for anything, is wrong. Hating, even the world for making me trans can easily morph over to hating myself because I am trans. Remember though, you are only doing that in your down moments, when your emotions take over too much, which also is totally female. In time you will know you are wrong, not only on yourself, but the world. In time you will find the wonders also of being trans, as they are there also, in time also you wil realize that being trans is not the best thing in the world that there could ever be, it has some drawbacks also, but, those drawbacks are just being female, and every female has those same issues.
I don't think I have helped one little bit. I am sorry.
...Katerina.
