Broken and Wishing I Did Not Care

[K Style Addiction]

You know, this is more a rant...its kind of a bummer that when I post here sad stuff and people tell me to go see a psychiatrist and I can't and don't for many reasons and I'm treated like a jerk for not accepting advice.

I mean I really can't, to make it short I am broke nor do I have the time nor luxury of it, there's so much wrong with my life that it's impossible for me to do. It's not that I'm don't that your advice into consideration it's just something I can't do, I've been hurt by psychiatrist in the past many times before not like I've never been to one

Except for my friends (that defeneitly includes you white rabbit). I get thus feeling A LOT of people here don't like me and it kinda hurts.

It's like I'm one huge bother, a problem...maybe I should take a hint and leave? I don't know I love it here, it's the only place I found support, It just feels like the majority here that know me hate me.

Maybe I am horrible and should take my being locked out from the world one step further and talk to no one.

[K Style Addiction]

Actually you know, I hate me too.

[missymay]

I don't know you personally, but I've read some of your posts, and you seem to be a sweet caring person.  Everyone has problems, and we all have our way(s) of coping with them, and sometimes we just need to tell someone, just to be heard without feeling we are being judged, and hopefully feel some acceptance, and at least be understood and encouraged by our peers.  Take care, and send me a pm if you would like to chat

[suzifrommd]

Hugs, Donna.

Depression is a horrible condition that blinds us to the reality of our lives and shows us a picture far more bleak than reality. That might be what's making you feel like there are a lot of people who don't like you, and what's keeping you from seeing what a special, beautiful person you are.

[SunKat]

Maybe I am horrible and should take my being locked out from the world one step further and talk to no one.

I've pretty much gone to where you are thinking of going.  I come here to read, but I seldom write anything. 
I can't say that I am any happier for it.  It just gives me one more thing to hate about my life.

Keep reaching out.

[Devlyn]

I think that people are just at a loss for what to say, Donna.  We don't want to post something unhelpful, so we just watch the thread. I can only speak for myself, but I have been here a long time and have seen many people "turn the corner" and put their demons behind them. I'm waiting for your day to arrive so you can just go enjoy the life you deserve. I really am, and I know it's coming. Happy Thanksgiving, hon!

Hugs, Devlyn