its getting to be to much here. i love you all but its time for me to part ways. its for the best. if i stay any longer, well...i just might break down even more. you all helped tremendously but i kinda felt a little invisible, somewhat ignored and it hurt a little. i had to seek what i needed somewhere else. i know everyone can't get to everyone but thats not my point. some of the things i;ve been reading have disturbed me enough that i started logging on less and less. these are my true feelings. kinda of feel constricted, i cant say whats on my mind without someone trying to discredit me. i cant be myself anymore. there have been burning questions but if i ask them, i'd get the hammer. i am a passing ship in the night. its time for me to sail away to new uncharted waters. i'm sorry and let this be my official goodbye. if its possible, please delete my account. if not, than i'll have to figure out something because i wont be back. again, i am sorry