Hello there,
I'm not new to reading these forums, but I am new to posting on them. My name's Sam (thankfully ambiguous), but I prefer to go by SJ. I am FtM, twenty years old and pre-everything. I grew up in a little place called Vermont, raised as a tomboy, and was well loved by my family. When I was ten I learned what 'gay' and 'lesbian' meant and thought I was a lesbian until I discovered what Transgender was when I was fifteen. After a year of researching and talking here, on Susan's chat, I came out to my parents and sister. My sister was accepting, albeit her first words after I told her were, "You want a penis? I just thought you were gay" (I still chuckle at the memory). My father was concerned about my future being hard (finding love and acceptance), but was on-board for learning. My mother, however, told me I was dead. So I went into some therapy and was hoping to get on testosterone ASAP, but that didn't work out (inexperienced therapist, parent-denial, etc.). My parents divorced and I ended up bouncing around homes for a while. I now live in the Adirondacks of New York with my Grandmother (whom thinks I'm gay). She's pretty open to LGBTQA-Z stuff, we've even talked about Trans people and she's understanding. The reason I haven't come out to her yet is because I desire body modifications, which she is highly against (and I mean ANY body mods, like tattoos or earrings. She thinks everyone is beautiful as they are, which is nice, but I still like tattoos and want HRT). So, the reason I decided to stop being just a reader here and start posting is because I'm finally going to move forward in my transition. I've been keeping this to myself for the past five years, but somehow or another my two aunts knew I was trans (trust me, my mother didn't tell them) and they support me fully. They both have told their children and all of them seem to accept and love me (I'm a little bothered they all talk about this without me, but at the same time it's nice to know it was obvious I'm male haha). So, I've decided to do my very best now that I'm an adult with supportive people around me.
I hope that wasn't too long nor too boring. It's nice to meet you all and hopefully have lots of help to give and receive.
I'm glad to be here and be queer,
SJ
