Quote from: wolfxheart on November 23, 2014, 11:01:51 PM
I also have a TON of dysphoria about my genitals and anxiety about being touched in that way by strangers. I'm 18 and almost got on birth control when I was ~15 (for heavy periods) but I started bawling at the doctor's office when she wanted to give me a pelvic exam. I don't know how to deal with being penetrated in that way.
TRIGGER WARNING: talk of personal discomfort and ab*se
this was a personal hurdle that i had to leap over myself. i have PTSD so gyne appointments for me were almost unbearable. in the end you have to accept that its important to get those exams to make sure your healthy, rather than having to deal with more long term problems. Pelvic exams are not that long compared to the time future complications due to not getting checked out will take, (not trying to insinuate that you will have complications just trying to say its important to make sure you dont, or catch things early on)
when you do go, just take it a couple steps at a time. let your doctor know that this makes you uncomfortable, and if possible why. Then just try to relax and take it seconds at a time until its over. use alot of positive self talk, and remind yourself that it will be over soon, and try to remember your doing this to make sure you dont have to deal with other problems that would amplify the dysphoria even worse.
after its all over go home and do alot of self care, and reward yourself, after doing something that makes you uncomfortable, or anything that was challenging its important to take care of your body, de-stress, and reward yourself for rolling with the punches and getting the tough work taken care of:D.
