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Started by Ethanma, October 26, 2014, 09:04:39 PM

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Ethanma

Hi, I gave birth to four girls and at age 17 one of them came out as trans, so I have three girls and a boy. And honestly I am more and more feeling the appeal of fluid sexuality/gender instead of having set labels. It was not really a shock. Ther was a slow build-up from straight to lesbian to androgenous to trans. I did feel a loss of having all girls. I felt that I failed when trying to teach my kids to love and accept their bodies regardless of size and shape. He is really depressed when having a period and birth control causes more spotting and bleeding than doing nothing. And he despises his chest, which is the size most women would love. It has been difficult for him to bind plus he has asthma and binding isn't safe for too long. He is an awsome kid, strong willed and big into social justice.

I am in pflag but my area doesn't really have trans families so I hope I can have other parents to talk to here.
Mum to four, sometimes more. One is grown, another came along. I cook and clean, from tot to teen.
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Devlyn

Welcome aboard and bless you! I'm single, so most of my parenting skills involve Sit, Stay! Good boy! You'll get some real help, though, I swear it! Lots of knowledgeable people here.

Hugs, Devlyn
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Ethanma

Thanks! We have two dogs...had three but one old girl passed in the Spring. The other girl is 11 yrs old and I fear doesn't have much longer :( But unfortunately that is life when you are an animal lover :(

I haven't seen many posts from parents on this site but I have found lots of good info!
Mum to four, sometimes more. One is grown, another came along. I cook and clean, from tot to teen.
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LordKAT

Welcome to Susan's.

We do have a few parents here, although not many. There are so few who are supportive of their children that it is a blessing to see some who are.


I have a daughter who debated about if she was but decided that she is content to live as she is.

There really is a great deal of information here and many very supportive people to get you through some of the tougher aspects that come up. Feel free to share the good and the bad that you run into.


Here are some links to site rules and answers to often asked questions.

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Ethanma

Thanks for the links.

A big issue right now is we can't afford the testosterone and travel time/gas to get to the closest doc who will help trans males. We tried to get our family doc to look into it but they will only give referrals. My son is saying he will just take steroids since it does the same thing  :o Of course I'm not going to let that happen but the while thing is a struggle from outside sources. I hate making him wait and I know he is miserable. But I have a big family and trying to meet everyone's needs is not easy. I am worried he thinks I don't care but we have talked about it and he claims to understand. I am trying to find some good binders for christmas. He has one but it aggravates his asthma.
Mum to four, sometimes more. One is grown, another came along. I cook and clean, from tot to teen.
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adrian

Ethanma, I just wanted to say it's great you are here to support your son! Welcome!

Dysphoria is a very powerful "condition" - I myself believe that bodies should come in all shapes and sizes, and that gender norms are here to be bent. And I still cannot overcome the dysphoria, the sense that something is really, really wrong. So please don't believe that you somehow failed to teach your children self-acceptance. If your son is capable of accepting himself as trans that's a real achievement!
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littleredrobinhood

I wish everyone could have such understanding, supportive mothers! Your son is lucky to have you, and I'm sure he feels the same way.  :)
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Devlyn

Quote from: Ethanma on October 26, 2014, 10:57:58 PM
Thanks for the links.

A big issue right now is we can't afford the testosterone and travel time/gas to get to the closest doc who will help trans males. We tried to get our family doc to look into it but they will only give referrals. My son is saying he will just take steroids since it does the same thing  :o Of course I'm not going to let that happen but the while thing is a struggle from outside sources. I hate making him wait and I know he is miserable. But I have a big family and trying to meet everyone's needs is not easy. I am worried he thinks I don't care but we have talked about it and he claims to understand. I am trying to find some good binders for christmas. He has one but it aggravates his asthma.

There are sliding scale clinics, and the testosterone itself isn't very expensive. What binder is he using? There are free binder programs out there, and sometimes a Good Samantha or Samaritan here will step up and help out.  ;)

Quote from: Ethanma on October 26, 2014, 09:30:47 PM
Thanks! We have two dogs...had three but one old girl passed in the Spring. The other girl is 11 yrs old and I fear doesn't have much longer :( But unfortunately that is life when you are an animal lover :(

I haven't seen many posts from parents on this site but I have found lots of good info!

I put down a yellow lab in 2010, he was eleven.  Now I have another one that's eleven and slowing down. He was a trooper out in the woods Saturday though, we were Geocaching.

Hugs, Devlyn
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Chloe

Quote from: Ethanma on October 26, 2014, 10:57:58 PMhaven't seen many posts from parents on this site . . . I hate making him wait and I know he is miserable.

Is son's name "Ethan" and your his "ma"?  ;) Bottom line is when he turns 18 legally he can do whatever he wants so being 'supportive', keeping communication lines open is the best you can do! Being an older single 'transparent' of two (15 and soon to be 17) I know it's certainly never easy !!

Does he has supportive friends, doing ok in school? Wouldn't sweat it too much you sound like a great mom!!
"But it's no use now," thought poor Alice, "to pretend be two people!
"Why, there's hardly enough of me left to make one respectable person!"
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Ethanma

I am not good at coming up with usernames lol He quit school last year but is now wanting to go back so we are working on that. He does have supportive friends. Alot of family "goes along" with it and makes the effort to use the correct pronouns/name.
Mum to four, sometimes more. One is grown, another came along. I cook and clean, from tot to teen.
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Ethanma

I also tried to get him to let me pick his name since that is what parents do but he wouldn't go for that.
Mum to four, sometimes more. One is grown, another came along. I cook and clean, from tot to teen.
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Devlyn

Selecting a name is an important part for us!
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dalebert

Quote from: Ethanma on October 26, 2014, 09:30:47 PM
I haven't seen many posts from parents on this site but I have found lots of good info!

I wish more parents would come here. I doubt they realize what a good resource it is. I suspect a lot of people are sharing some very personal thoughts here and aren't particularly inclined to encourage their parents to follow the forum. Many of them are not even out to their parents yet. I'm not sure what could be done about that.

Ethanma

I really do understand not wanting parents here to see what is being said. I would have hidden it forever from my parents, honestly, but it's different with a child. I feel like a mama bear. I follow my son's lead in telling people so there is family who doesn't know. But then my gay brother in law said he figured it out already.

I have a set  of grandparents who I know would love him unconditionally, but would refuse to accept it. They are very religious and have made comments about gays being disgusting. On one hand I know that is the wrong attitude to have but on the other hand my grandfather is full of love for us. My son would not react well to my grandfather's reaction. I am torn about this. They do know my brother in law is gay and that we are close and accept it. They don't know I am accepting to the point that I and all my kids protested in front of chic-fil-a on their appreciation day a couple of years ago.
Mum to four, sometimes more. One is grown, another came along. I cook and clean, from tot to teen.
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Devlyn

Sometimes those stoic grandparents change their tune real quick when a loved one is discovered to be in a group they claim to dislike.
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Ethanma

My mom stopped posting anti-gay things on fb and now reads stuff about being transgender. She reacted far better than I imagined.
Mum to four, sometimes more. One is grown, another came along. I cook and clean, from tot to teen.
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MrSeahorse

Don't beat yourself up about teaching body acceptance. I am a transguy and a militant feminist, so I am really into body positivity. I have so much trouble at the intersection of body acceptance and gender dysphoria. I feel hypocritical about feeling like I need top surgery to feel okay or that I need to pack every day. I did not grow up with an awesome mom like you. My parents are really bad about body policing and trans issues in general. I'm so glad you support your son.
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aleon515

Are you on FB? The FB Transgender Alliance seems to have a lot of parents?
I'm a trans guy. Happy to meet (virtually speaking) a parent of a young trans guy. I know several people that have young trans guy kids. If you want to PM me?
Having supportive parents makes a huge difference in the lives of trans people.

T is not especially expensive and some people do get insurance to cover it. Steroids can be quite dangerous, so getting your kid with a doctor can be really important. I don't know where you live so can't recommend anything. In some cities (esp in red states), Planned Parenthood has services for trans people. I know of several guys getting T from PP.

Look at underworks binders. They are inexpensive and are used by a lot of trans guys.

--Jay
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rosalba

Hi, Also a mother of a now 16 year old transgender son. I have not found this forum before but would have been on here years ago had I known about it. I can say there are a lot of parents supporting their children now and is more the majority then the minority that I am finding on different groups and forums; even personally. My son has the full support of myself, my husband (his step-father; ironically his biological father and grandparents have harassed him and been very cruel. Have had to call the police on at least one occasion). My 13 year old daughter (his sister) has grown up these past 4 years understanding and accepting his name change (changed it to his step father's first name and my husband's grandfather whom passed when my husband was very young. He asked us what we would name him and while we talked days about it he one day asked my husband what his father's name was. His name came from there and we were both touched) and supporting him automatically with everything-even the tough pronoun change the first year that she kept confusing.  We were the ones that told him we would find alternate solutions to high school but he was adamant to want to stay with his new name, etc. Different school however. The school is very supportive and the teachers are respectful. We had a very long talk at the beginning to the school and the board about this and they did a lot to support. However, the first school we went to approach in the area stated very firmly, "We dont really have students like that here" then wouldnt return calls. We could have fought but this was better. He has attended this school year and part of last. While he still says that there are those whom mutter things under their breath in the hall at him, my husband and I are more concerned then he seems to be and just waves it off. He says they are just idiots and they are jealous of all the female friends he has there (which he does). He also has a lot of both straight and gay young men that come over and are good friends. This keeps us feeling a little less worried. He is brave and we are proud of him. Wanted to post so anyone can hear maybe a 'flip side' of the schools.

Then wanted to add to the previous posts of a frustration; here in Fl my son had sessions on skype for counseling and at a pretty high cost. He did several sessions-the doctor is in Miami and the only we could honestly find in Fl-and was told she would approve the shots but when we asked for any kind of help finding someone, she couldn't provide. She said she can only refer once we find someone. We are having problems finding someone for that and at any price. Lower cost after the thousands we have already shelled out would be extra helpful. If there is any help in this area, please let me know. Would love to hear from you.
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awilliams1701

I have to wonder what its like for my dad. He's been very supportive of me, but by coming out I'm doing the opposite of your son. I'm in a sense taking away my dad's only boy and now my parents have 4 girls as a result. I was also named for a friend(I think) of his that died in Vietnam so at first the thought of changing my name seemed a little disrespectful. In fact he wanted to name my 3 sisters Allen before he named me Allen. So at least for now I'm considering keeping my first name as my new middle name.
Ashley
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