Gladly, my mother has not said anything negative since I told her on Wednesday night. In fact, she said "I love you and always will," and "I just want you to be happy, whatever that takes."
Still, there seems to be some insincerity there. I can tell from her disturbed and negative facial expressions, together with her skepticism of the benefits of suppressing T levels. She also admitted that "This would be the hardest thing for your father to accept, of any possibility." My father is also prejudiced against gays and Muslims, but apparently this would be even harder for him to accept. Once my father knows and threatens my mother for being supportive, I fully expect both of them to try to poison me with steroids, if not outright abandon me.
So I wanted to see if anyone had any suggestions for approaching my father, a much more daunting task:
My father always wanted me to be more 'normal' and that to him means masculine. He threw out my female clothing, covertly tested my hormone levels, rubbed steroids on my back, forced me to take zinc, put vitamin D in my food, and force-fed me eggs, all to stop me from being my feminine self. He is prejudiced against women and almost every minority group in existence. Knowing that his "son" is actually a transgender woman would send his world crashing down. I fear for my money, my body, my home, even my life. Still, I plan to tell him on December 22 because I cannot go through the whole holiday season as someone else. How can I approach a monster like him? Help me please!
