So, I was blunt and asked the question to my gf if you she still finds me sexually attractive. Keep in mind that I am open to her open crossdressing and she has seen my pictures where I am fully dressed (she does not like it). She told me that she doesn't because she doesn't like the idea of me being feminine or dressed, she doesn't have to see me dressed up, just the thought doesn't agree with her. She concluded with the thought that she does still love me.
If this happened several months ago, I would have been heart broken and near damn suicidal, but today I was more wondering if she could be remain a friend if I transition. My thought process is still confused. Last night I was talking to myself in the car in my feminine voice (sounds more like a drag queen) where I confessed to my gf that I was a woman and that I don't know if she could accept me, but I still loved her. It seems that we are on similar wave lengths, but I hope that therapy can help me figure it out.
Conversely there is part of me that is wondering if I am projecting my desires of a sexual woman onto myself as I am not sexually satisfied in my current relationship. Hard to figure out...
