I've mentioned over and over to people how I need some help with beautification. I want my eyebrows done and some hands-on training with makeup, but I'm still sitting here in the dark hearing my voice echo. I hate having to go out anywhere these days because transition has freed me from having to uphold some kind of male persona, and I can't even reach an androgynous appearance because I'm not about to walk into a Sally's or a salon looking like I do right now without some support.
Not only do I need help figuring out what I need for my skin type and how to apply it, but I'm very interested in the art of makeup itself so that I can help others or prepare someone for a photo shoot. Despite all of the emotional support I've had, I feel incredibly alone. I've known very enthusiastic people in my 33 years like girls who jump at the opportunity to beautify their friends, but when I need that there's no one to be found. That seems to be a recurring situation with me no matter what it is I'm wanting to do.
It makes me depressed, because I start thinking about how I should have just been a natal female to begin with so I wouldn't have to worry about this stuff as some old crone.
Any suggestions?
