Right now I seem to be kind of overwhelmed, ecstatic,interested, and just an overall sense of the world unfolding before my eyes. The first few months of hrt and I never strayed too far away from my standard fare: hrt, mtf talk and a couple others. Something new is happening and I dont know how to label it, I think the answer is in the title of the thread. Tonight I ventured around the site far more than I ever have before and experienced an overload of sorts, but of really nice feelings. As some here may know, I spent my entire life in addiction, running as fast as possible in the direction 'away' from personal insight. Well the thread that had the most impact tonight was scrolling thru the cooking thread. I very rarely ate and was at most times nutritionally starved. Oddly though this was about something entirely different, seeing the pictures of nicely prepared food, place settings on tables, descriptions of preparation techniques, I felt I was beginning to see what the world is 'truly' about for the first time. It made me feel all funny inside, like I wanted to cry, laugh, smile, and a myriad of other things all at the same time. I feel like I'm being born and looking around at the world. At this very moment I can feel tears on my cheeks as I type. After leaving the cooking section I started to scan all the different forum sections, science, hobbies, on and on. My world is finally coming alive and it feels really really good. It is nice to be relieved of some of the burden of stepping out and away from that bright and glaring hotspot which exists underneath the magnifying lens of self introspection and relaxing enough for this experience to take place. I have much much to learn and this is a great place to do it. Thanks Dani
