I am now over trying to be "smaller"

[Annaiyah]

I know I've been a little quiet on here recently, but I've just wanted to stop by and get this one thing off my chest that I've been thinking about most of last night.

A few of you might remember me ranting in one of my previous threads about wanting to be 5 foot 3 and determining that I will be, which now I feel embarrassed about because I never meant to be such a jerk about it. But here is the link to the thread: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php?topic=150957.5

I've come to the realization that I don't need to be less than 5'7 and have tiny hands and feet to pass as a woman -- mainly because there are genetic cis women who are 5'11, six feet, and even taller, and I'm not going to be rude and ask those women if or not they are trans, especially since/if they don't even look like it.

I've always wanted to be short because growing up. I've always hated being taller than most of the kids my age, much more so, the "compliments" I used to always get from the "Oh, golly! You're so tall!", "You've got big feet! You should play basketball!", and then the "You've got long fingers; you should play the piano!" which makes me want to just rip out that person's esophagus, and I didn't have the luxury of starting on hormones as a child and that bothers me even more.

What's also a bother to me is that my pelvic bone is fixed in its "male" position, whereas had I started hormones pre-puberty, it would be in the "female" position, and I don't feel all too crazy about the idea of having hip implants, and I want my hips to look something like this:

http://cdn.http.nancyganz.com.au/images/D/bw8398_bblk_f-1209.jpg

Also, I've been Googling around and found some online stores that sell larger-than-normal women's shoes. The feet and shoe size thing is what I really came on here to talk about.

Unfortunately having feet too big is a bother for most of us when we would rather be wearing women's footwear rather than men's and it's a bigger problem since hormones don't change bone structure unless you start pre-puberty and surgery does not (yet) exist to change the size of a person's foot. But I have run into a solution: just search for online for women's footwear in larger sizes because there are stores out there that make shoes for women with big feet. It's a bother to me that quite a few of them cater to crossdressers, drag queens, transgenders, etc. because I would rather not be doing something as a trans person. But my feelings of discouragement of never being able to find larger women's footwear have now been shattered when I found these sites and had this idea.

Think about it. I'm 5 foot 11 and my feet and hands are proportionate to my likewise 5 foot 11 body, so I don't have to worry about my foot size or my height getting me "outed" or whatever have you, but I will just be hoping the men I will end up dating and the boyfriend I will end up having will be taller than me with bigger hands and feet than me.

Last thing! Then I will let you guys go because I don't wanna make this a long thread.

I've also wanted to be shorter because as you can probably tell from my Yellow Ranger avatar, I'm into Power Rangers and cosplaying as a Power Ranger or whatever. On the show, the stunt person for the Ranger I wanted to be is 5 foot 4 and I just didn't think the suit would ever look right on a woman my height.

Also, I love wearing a skirt and tights with the flats with the bow, etc. particularly the denim skirt, see-thru white, navy blue, or black tights, and black mary janes, or sequined pink/silver/black sparkling flats with a bow at the toes or something like that. I like that way of dress because it looks so girly and youthful, and always wanted to wear those as a 5 foot 3 girl. But I often worry though that this is the kind of attire -- if worn too frequently -- might get people asking questions especially since I'm not a child, and it might get me clocked. I am thinking that cis people associate the whole wearing tights thing with porn or crossdressing thing and I don't want to draw extra attention to myself. Plus, I don't see too many women wearing that kind of attire that frequently. I really don't mean to stereotype but that's just a little something that's been lingering in the back of my mind.

[Myarkstir]

If it helps, as far as height is concerned most Victoria Secret models are between 5'9" and 5'11"

[Ms Grace]

I've come to the realization that I don't need to be less than 5'7 and have tiny hands and feet to pass as a woman -- mainly because there are genetic cis women who are 5'11, six feet, and even taller, and I'm not going to be rude and ask those women if or not they are trans, especially since/if they don't even look like it.

This is a good thing to realise.

[Lostkitten]

I should travel more and learn how 5'7 is tall. Here you would be considered tiny, yes, as a girl xD.

[Apple]

I'm 6 foot 1.5" / 186 cm, and every single day in the subway I meet at least one or two women taller than me (a city of about 1 million people)

[Annaiyah]

I'm 6 foot 1.5" / 186 cm, and every single day in the subway I meet at least one or two women taller than me (a city of about 1 million people)

New York City?

[23 Skidoo]

No one associates tights with porn or anything, its one of the most common pieces of attire there is. Maryjanes and bows though would be super weird though

[katiej]

One thing I've learned is that women really do come in all shapes and sizes, and they learn how to dress for their body type.  We as transwomen tend to focus on surgical options and we underestimate the power of fashion and makeup. 

My life got a lot easier when I realized that the vast majority of women don't have the classic hourglass figure.  So it's fine that I don't.

[JoanneB]

When I was in my 20's I was an even 6ft tall. Today a bit less. I calculated that by the time I am 237 y/o I'll reach my goal height of 5'4".  I really really hate banging my head on all sorts of things and beds that are always short sheeted.

And... Don't get me started on shoes! Like is there a law somewhere that says anything larger then a size 10 has to be a) But Ugly; b) Have a minimum of 5" heels; or c) All of the above ? And no, I don't want to pay big $$$ for mail order shoes that won't fit right since I have a weird foot thanks to being one of those 1% with extra bones in them. (Just one of the cosmic jokes played on me)

[Skeptoid]

Well hey, if it's any consolation they also assume if you're wearing size 10 shoes you have huge calves. I'm rail thin so I can only get reasonably well fit boots if I order semi-custom authentic leather. (I can't afford this. I have on pair that I saved up for before I started transition...) The worst part is that even the boots I do have that fit my calves are wide around my ankles.

[Wild Flower]

Being short is good only if youre pretty.

I had a chip on my shoulder because I feel like I get underestimated.... I do like it when Im with a guy otherwise noo... its not good to be short. Its like do I have to move to the side just because youre bigger... and I hate when people can get in your business (like putting their hand on your shoulder).

Like dont... unless were close.

Im 5'6. So its not that short.

[PinkCloud]

Many short woman are ULTRA-Jealous of your height. Trust me, they do. That is why they hatin': jealousy. Ask any short woman, they feel just as insecure as us tall woman. I am 6 in height. My boyfriend is 6.5. No problem. I love my height, which means long legs, something to envy in itself. Just rock it, and show them how it is done being a classy tall woman!

[TSJasmine]

I read your other post & I'm glad you've come to your senses lol Shrinking to 5'3" from 5'11" is insane lol Maybe to 5'9" at most but even that's hoping for a lot. Be glad you're tall. My friend is 5'11" & WOW is she gorgeous! I personally think a lot of tall woman are pretty. Maybe that's just because I'm tall but I've seen quite a few pretty ones. They stand out a bit more so it's easier to see their beauty

[Wild Flower]

How do you shrink?

[JustLucy]

It also depends on where you live.

I live in the Netherlands, and despite being 1,81 (about 6 feet I think), I am only 3 cm taller than my mother, and everywhere I go there are cis women that are taller than me. They're the minority, but it's not rare by any means.

Just a few weeks ago I saw a woman in the supermarket who was almost a head taller than me, looking at my feet as I was wearing pumps, with a look of jealousy.

[Annaiyah]

Keep in mind, I just wanted to be 5 foot 3 because I've been thinking that women are typically around that height, and I would look better sporting my favorite skirt, see-through tights, and sparkling flats.

[Steph34]

I've come to the realization that I don't need to be less than 5'7 and have tiny hands and feet to pass as a woman -- mainly because there are genetic cis women who are 5'11, six feet, and even taller, and I'm not going to be rude and ask those women if or not they are trans, especially since/if they don't even look like it.

I am still trying to realize this, because it is rare that I see a woman my height. Although I do have far bigger insecurities, my height does not help because I consider it an unwanted masculine feature, and worst of all, one that cannot be fixed. It is true that there are taller cis women. My 8th grade teacher was about my current height, and my senior research advisor in college was half a head taller than me, and both of them were very feminine. In one way, my height could actually make passing easier because most people, especially women, are not tall enough to see the top of my head where there is almost no hair. It would also seem to me that there are many men who would find a cis woman my height very attractive. With that said, height is still one more factor in my inferiority complex, since I really just want to look like a woman already.

I've always wanted to be short because growing up. I've always hated being taller than most of the kids my age, much more so, the "compliments" I used to always get from the "Oh, golly! You're so tall!", "You've got big feet! You should play basketball!", and then the "You've got long fingers; you should play the piano!" which makes me want to just rip out that person's esophagus, and I didn't have the luxury of starting on hormones as a child and that bothers me even more.

I agree with this. I was always like the tallest child in my class in elementary school, or at least the second tallest. I hated it, because it only drew attention to me which quickly turned negative once they realized I was emotional and not interested in their boy stuff.

What's also a bother to me is that my pelvic bone is fixed in its "male" position, whereas had I started hormones pre-puberty, it would be in the "female" position, and I don't feel all too crazy about the idea of having hip implants

I feel your pain. Deformed skeletal shape is my second strongest reason for self-hate, second only to hormonal hair loss.

Unfortunately having feet too big is a bother for most of us when we would rather be wearing women's footwear rather than men's and it's a bigger problem since hormones don't change bone structure unless you start pre-puberty and surgery does not (yet) exist to change the size of a person's foot.

If it helps at all, I never notice people's feet, despite otherwise being rather obsessed with appearance, and my feet are so wide that I actually can't fit into most shoes designed for my assigned sex.

New York City?

I would have to assume your guess is wrong because NYC has over 8 million people.