Recurring nightmares about "it" being back?

[Assoluta]

Hi all,

I am 3 years post op and very happy with the results. Even now, I still have days of post-op euphoria, as I truly couldn't stand what I had before (in fact it was the first sign of my dysphoria at 4).

I had SRS at 23, but even now, I quite often have nightmares that I have male genitalia, and during the dream, it does feel quite real. Curiously, in quite a lot of the dreams, I don't have the testes, but have a penis. It's an obvious relief when I wake up, but I wondered if anyone else had experienced this?

[nicole99]

I'm about 3 years post-op too. I find that in many of my dreams I still have a penis. While sometimes a little unsettling most are not nightmares. Actually a lot of them are erotic dreams and yes it does very much feel quite real!

I guess you could see it as a kind of mind betrayal, that you can never be fully free of it (which is a terrifying thought). But actually, and more pragmatically, if you spent most of your life with one and it had so much prominence, on account of it's wrongness, then more than likely you will dream about it.

Thankfully it is just a nightmare and it will never be reality again. 

[Errka]

I'm a little over a year post-op and, during this time, I've had a lot of nightmares where I had a penis. A recurring context within these nightmares is that the surgery somehow failed and now the penis is regenerating (sometimes it's partially restored.) Now my dreams involving genitals are a 50/50 toss-up between having some form of a penis or not.

I haven't seen my talk-doctor in awhile to discuss these dreams/nightmares, but I did talk to him about a break up once. I explained that finally, when I dreamed of my ex, we were either not together or I simply didn't care for him anymore. He was happy for me and explained that it can take time for our dream contexts to catch up with new realities.

Hopefully your dreams catch up with reality soon!

[MCMCyn]

I have had a few over my six plus years of being post-op. But I had one really bad one I believe about two years after surgery. It was so believable mentally and feeling it physically, that I woke up in a sweat and had to reach down to physically check myself, 

[Northern Jane]

A few weeks after SRS I had a nightmare that it had all just been a dream. I woke up screaming and drenched with sweat. It only happened once in these 40 years.