These past few months, I've been obsessing over the issue of passing-can I actually pull it off all the time, even when I'm not in full contouring makeup (as in my profile pic)? Will my tells every go away? Was this whole thing a huge mistake? I was at a party earlier this week; the hostess was a trans friend of mine, and she told a few of her friends about me, and how I'd been helping her with her own gender issues. I got to talking with one of them, and I guess it somehow came up that I'd been helping the friend with her gender stuff, and the girl I was talking too just looked at me in shock, and told me she would never have guessed! I've heard that more than once this past month; I guess hormones have actually worked for me!
Still, it's hard to believe that I've actually had some success in my transition. I'm not sure if I accept fully that I'm making progress, I'm still partially convinced any change that's happened since I started hrt is just in my head. But, I saw an old picture of myself today that I hadn't gotten rid of for some reason, and it took me a split second to remember who he was!
It's still hard to tell if I'm actually making progress though-or, perhaps I should say it's hard to accept that I am? This whole thing feels like an odd dream, and I still half expect myself to wake up.
