Okay so my dad supports me, he uses male pronouns, male name, pays for my HRT etc., and yet today he told me that he "believes what I tell him". So I asked him what if I suddenly told him that I am in fact a girl, would he go back to female pronouns and treat me as a girl despite how this might affect me because we both would be living a lie? and he said yes, because he says if he were to believe his own judgement (not what I tell him) he'd say I'm a girl, because of the way I am and my childhood (I used to play with dolls for instance and stuff like that, which obviously has nothing to do with my gender identity but whatever). Then I said, well what's for sure is that I'm a boy, and then he said "do you like women?" and I said no (he already knows I don't), then he said "well most men like women... not everyone but the vast majority do". Was that a way to imply that I must like women to be a man, or that being gay or asexual like in my case makes you less of a man? Who knows, the point is, he rather sees it as me, a female, "wanting" to be a boy, not already being one.
And this is not the only time that I hear this kind of stuff, I've had the same feeling (that they are just humoring you) from other people, and it just makes me realize that some people will say they support you and love you no matter what and they will treat you as you want, but deep down they won't believe or understand that we are not men because we say so, but because we are. Have any of you had this same feeling? Like they'd need to feel our pain to believe us, but they can't and this humoring you crap is frustrating.
