Hello everyone, it's nice to meet everyone. c:
My name is Laci, I'm 19 years old, and I'm a cross dresser (mtf). I've seen myself as a female for over 6 years now, and now that I'm an adult, I feel like I'm finally free. I'm not sure if I'll ever have any surgeries or HRT or anything like that. Money is really tight nowadays, and I don't think my family or I can pay for it. But I do wear breast forms and I'm completely fine with them, and I'm completely happy being me. Speaking of family, I'm very very scared to let them know about this. I live with my Grandma and I love her to death. However, my grandmother see's it awkward for me to be this way, but I think she's accepting. It's my other family that I worry so much about. I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable about it, it's really hard to tell my family. I feel like the only way is to just start helping myself and be me. I'm a very quiet and shy person. I've always liked calm places even as a toddler. When I was 7, I was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome, which is like a mild form of autism. It's kind of hard to explain for me. But I'd figure I'd share that, I don't mind. As far as dating, I have no intentions. I like to be alone, but I love having friends and pepole to talk to, too. I can defend for myself. I'm a very independent person. I also have some back and leg issues. I use a rollator to get around which helps out a ton. I threw them out so to speak when I was working a few years ago. But it's okay, the rollator is just another thing that makes me, me. When I see myself, I see long black hair, with blue eyes, pale skin, a trademark necklace and a nice long dress that goes down to my feet with long gladiator sandals. As far as makeup goes, I've never tried it, and I'm not sure if I will. When I shave, I can get every little nook and cranny even though it takes hours. But it's worth it to me. Anyways, I have some numerous hobbies. I love building with lego, I collect dice (my necklace can hold my dice in the pendant), I loooooove Nintendo and anime and numbers, I'm a bit of a nerd hehe. I also like to watch nascar and auto racing. To wrap things up I came here for some help, have people to talk about these things with and maybe makes some friends along the way. I'm very sorry for writing a book, I just wanted to introduce myself and stuff. c: I'm shy, but I worked my courage to tell everything. c: My journey isn't complete yet, but I'm getting there one step at a time. Thank you everyone for reading, and i'm sorry for writing a book. ^^
Edit: Ooopies, I forgot to mention that I wanted to share, I don't speak at all, I communicate with a big notepad and a pencil. c: It a thing that's what my Asperger's, it makes it easier for me to communicate that way. I know it doesn't really matter on a forum since it's typing, but I figured I would share. Doh, I knew I was missing something when I typed this. *makes a facepalm* x.x
