Feeling very mixed up about going back to the gender services in leeds. The doctor I saw there really got inside my head about how Im autistic as an explanation for my gender identity (even though Ive already been tested and thats not the case) and that even if I did go back for a second opinion, nobody would disagree with him. He was rude and caused me a lot of upset.
I still have my second opinion appointment in two weeks time, but Im just so nervous that I'll go back and be treated like crap. I can't decide if i just give up with them and go private in the future, or do I bide my time, go for the second opinion and try my best to trust I will be treated with respect?
It's very difficult to tell. I keep looking at reviews of the center, and the doctor who I am seeing soon is constantly recommended as helpful and kind, but there's reviews every now and again that my gut instinct tells me was the guy I saw: autism or something else is brought up, patient feels humiliated and denied access to the care pathway.
The letter I got from the first person I saw actually has 'quotes' in it that do not match the words I used, or are phrased in a way to imply something other than my initial meaning. He even expresses my 'female identity' as 'a means of being noticed within their family unit' which I think is incomprehensible and almost feels like he's saying Im attention seeking