Confused ramblings:
Was out dining with friends and realised this
may no longer happen with me completing my desires... Kinda sad, scary and a lonely feeling.
As before I feel more relaxed with the girls, and am longing to say "yeah me too, love that/it" but if I did I would have come out to family friends before my SO's.. not really right, fair or maybe desirable.
So many times I have wanted to privately discuss my feeling and desires to other close friend's... but knowing I can't always makes me feel so despondent when I get home.... In fact questioning; but inside I cannot falter as in previous times.... at times like this I feel the wrath of Dysphoria... soooo sad... Can't think of a single non selfish reason why I have not committed before, after all, it ain't new to me
Love you guys, just needed to throw it out there
L Katy
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