Gender dysphoria for me got progressively stronger year after year. I would try and forget about it with a million projects and distractions but she would not let up. It felt like a tremendous relief to finally give up on the man act. Accepting myself as trans felt incredibly freeing and empowering. I further realized that my shame and isolation were magnifying my fears. Now going on two years of HRT I feel much better. My body has changed nicely, However, I have greater dysphoria about my genitals that feel even less like an appropriate fit. Bottom surgery is being pursued as I challenge the exclusion riders of the insurance industry. It is a long haul process for us with no guarantees about those illusive goals some have.
