Mine has been done much more lately but it will come back. Just last friday I got pretty depressed. It was awful and all I wanted to do is cry. This pain all while Im working. It sucks and I didnt want to bring others down. It made it worse since I had nothing to do basically.
It just circles your brain, the depression of Im a girl, why am I not a girl physically and than you see a girl and you want to cry and it loops over and over like some sick broken record that wont shut up. The only thing that helps it is tomorrow or even later that night, you feel better so you look forward to that. You say this doesnt last
Thing is like for me is when the dysphoria is way down and I feel more like a guy, now you feel like something is missing. Im a girl, why do I feel like a guy today. It's all a bunch of confusion.
Me, I know I should have been born a girl completely. I know that. There is no confusion there about that. My dysphoria has been down lately. The girl in me, it all is always around. Ive been more at peace lately but it doesnt go away and the sadness, the depression will come back for me than go away again. To others who feel they are alone in this, you are not. I get ya, I understand it and it has YES dragged me to feelings of suicide in the past before a few times and than I think of my niece and nephew just to start with and I think, they need me.
Hang in there and be yourself!! Know your not alone. The feeling of feeling your not alone makes the pain easier I think. The feeling of knowing your not alone is like therapy for you and it makes you feel way better.
To others who dont know what gender dysphoria is, this is a good insight I think.
