Point of no return

[Jenny07]

So I've been on hrt for some time now even though it is low dose and when I look at the results I am amazed and so happy.
When I look in the mirror now it is hard to see the old him and I feel I have gone beyond the point of no return.
E has done wonders and I love the changes and how I now feel.
This makes me incredibly happy but also very apprehensive.

I was wondering how others felt when they reached this point?

[Zoetrope]

I do actually Jenny, and it's only really been today ... for real.

It's Saturday here, so I got out the house as I do and headed to the city.
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Today was odd - good but odd, new to me.

Normally people will stare. They can't help it, cause I am in-between, only six months along, and you don't often see people like me. So normally lots of people stare or do double-takes. I've been accepting of that, fine with it.

It didn't happen today. Only once or twice from locals who have seen me recently.
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So ... I guess I am beginning to 'pass'. I looked at my figure in the mirror just now and I think I can see why.

And yeah, that to me is a *point of no return*.

How do I feel about that? I don't really know. I have had some apprehensive thoughts during the week, I think that's natural for the dramatic thing we are doing.

But yeah, I think it's gonna be okay now. Things are going to work out. If I look at it that way, and separate from lingering negative thoughts. I suppose it's really comforting.

Another day huh :~)

[Ms Grace]

Having seen one of your before pics when we met last time a few months back I'm amazed that people haven't noticed. Just goes to show most people don't pay much attention to anything.

I know what you're talking about Jen, I didn't really experience this time but I spent at least a year stuck at the point of no return during my first tilt at transition. I could've moved forward but was rooted to the ground for many reasons.

Question... you talk about "him" but have you yet had the opportunity to let "her/you" out? What is your sense of the woman you will be once you let her loose?

[Cindy]

One day I looked in the mirror. The mirrors I covered for most of my life so that I never saw 'him'. I looked and saw her; me.

At that point it didn't matter if I passed or not, I was now her. Me.

To be honest it wasn't easy. I turned my back on everything he had created, and he had created a lot.

I had a few moments of regret, fear - even hatred, for the decisions I had to make.

No one should have to make such decisions. But we do.

No one can make a decision for you. We are mature women who know our souls - it just takes a while to find them.

What I can say is that I and every other woman you know will stand next to you when you make your decision, no matter what that is.

Because that is what sisters do.

Hugs

[Ms Grace]

I haven't quite figured out if taking the next step feels like jumping off the top board of a diving pool, doing a bungee jump, or parachute diving. Probably because I've done none of those things! Whatever, one's heart can sure be in your throat and the butterflies rioting in the stomach at the time!